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Title: "No One Else Matters"
Author: [personal profile] snapealina
Pairing: Ron/Remus
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance/angst/drama
Warnings: none
Word Count: 13533
Summary: It's time for Ron to tell his family about his relationship with Remus, but how will his family react?
Author’s Note: This fic partly ignores the epilogue. It also ignores certain DH-deaths.

Thanks to my awesome beta, [profile] ginnylw!

Also thank you to my wonderful cheerleaders [profile] lindeluren, [profile] _lore and [profile] azure_rosa!

You've all been so much help like you wouldn't believe!!!

Title: "The Couch"
Artist: [profile] foryourstereo
Pairing: Ron/Remus
Rating: G
Media: Digital
Artist's Notes: -


No One Else Matters



Chapter 1

It was a lazy Saturday afternoon and Remus was sitting on the sofa in his small, but homely, cottage with a cup of tea by his side and a good book. All of these things were things that Remus had appreciated his entire life, but the highlight of the situation was the head with a mop of red hair in his lap. Remus looked down at his lover and grinned.




The head moaned loudly. “I'm bored!”

Remus chuckled and put the book on the table. His hand started to stroke the red hair beneath him. “Why? Aren't you happy here with me?” He pouted his lips, pretending to be offended.

Ron sat up. “Of course I am, I'm just bored. There's nothing to do around here. There are only books.”

Remus laughed. “I happen to think books are fun.” Ron gagged, making Remus smile even wider. “But we will have to find something to do, won't we?”

The older man grabbed Ron's confused face and gave him a deep kiss.

“Whoa, Remus,” Ron grinned after the two of them finally had to come up for air. “I should have complained earlier if I knew you were going to do that.”

He jumped up from the sofa and grabbed Remus' hand, desperately trying to drag him off of the sofa. “Come on!”

“Not now, Ron,” Remus chuckled. “We just came from upstairs, and I'm still exhausted.”

Ron moaned.

“You're going to be the death of me, Ron,” Remus laughed. “This old body need a break.”

“You're not old,” Ron stated.

“Thanks, but can't you find something to do for a little while and ask me again later?” Remus pulled him in for another kiss. “It's not that I don't want you, Ron. Trust me, I do! But we can't stay upstairs all day.”

“Why not?” Ron whined and lay down on the sofa and again placed his head in Remus' lap.

Remus gently let his hand run through Ron's hair. “I'm so happy I have you here, Ron. I hope you know that.”

Ron merely smiled back, and Remus picked up his book.

Not even a minute passed before Ron cried out again. “Aaaaah, I need to do something!”

Remus put down his book. “Well, what do you want to do?”

“Argh, I don't know,” Ron moaned. “I just have to do something. I'm going crazy here.”

“Well,” Remus started, “we could always go to the cinema or something.”

“Nah...” said Ron, “that's all we ever do, and there's nothing new I want to see anyway. I need to be around people, I need to do something around people.”

“I'm all for that, Ron,” Remus smiled, gently. “But you're the one that told me you weren't ready to let people know about us yet, remember?”

Ron nodded. “I know. It just that... It's not like I'm embarrassed by you or anything, it's just, well, I don't know how to tell them.” Ron admitted.

“I see,” Remus replied. He respected Ron's wishes, but he couldn't help but feel a bit hurt by the fact that his lover still didn't want anyone to know about them. “I know it's your choice, Ron, but it's been three months. Don't you think it's about time you told someone about me?”

“I should, but it's not that easy.” Ron blushed. “I haven't actually told them that I... you know... fancy blokes.”

“What?” Remus was totally caught off guard. “They don't even know that you're gay?”

Ron shook his head.

“No one knows?”

“Well, Harry and Hermione do. But they've been sworn to secrecy.” Ron stated.

“So I guess Ginny would know, too?” Remus said, but Ron shook his head again.

“Nope, I told Harry that if he so much hinted at this to Ginny, I would make sure that James would never get any siblings.”

Remus chortled.

“Of course I can't guarantee he hasn't said anything, but I hope he knows better than to go and blab to my sister. She would never be able to keep her mouth shut.”

“And Hermione?” Remus asked.

“Well, she had to find out sooner or later, didn't she?” said Ron. “I mean... we lived together for four years.”

“Was that the reason you two split up?” Remus wondered. He had never dared to ask Ron why before.

Ron nodded. “I tried to make it work, but I just couldn't!”

“I understand what you're talking about, Ron,” Remus chuckled.

“And I don't know what I would do if Mum finds out. She's still on my back about not making it work with Hermione.” Ron sighed. “So I really don't know what to tell her and how she will react.”

“Well, is there really a right way to tell her? Besides, it's your life, Ron! Not hers! Isn't it a mother's job to make sure her children are happy?”

“I guess,” Ron muttered.

“And it's not like you have to worry about me meeting the parents,” Remus laughed. “I already know them pretty well if I may say so.”

Ron faked a tiny smile. “Well, that's part of the problem. We know that they like you. I'm just not sure they'd like you as my boyfriend.”

***


Ron's stomach turned as he stepped through the door of the Burrow. He really didn't want to do this, but he knew it was time. Besides, his parents weren't unreasonable, it was probably nothing to worry about.

He walked into the kitchen and found his mum baking. As long as Ron could remember, his Mum had always baked something on Saturdays, getting ready for a big family dinner on Sunday.

“Hi Mum,” Ron said and sat down by the kitchen table.

“Ronniekins,” Molly beamed and gave him a big wet kiss on his cheek. “What brings you here? I thought you would be out enjoying this beautiful Saturday.”

“Well,” Ron hesitated. “I sort of need to talk to you and Dad about something.”

“Oh?” Molly asked while rinsing a bowl. “What is it, dear?”

Ron cringed. “Could you get Dad first?”

“Of course,” Molly said and wiped the dough off her hands.

“Arthur, can you come into the kitchen, please? Ron wants to see you.” Molly yelled through the kitchen door and seconds later Arthur Weasley came into the room.

“Ron!” he greeted. “What brings you here on this lovely day?”

“I...” he started.

“Ron has something to talk to us about,” Molly explained just as George walked through the door with Fred at his heels.

“What is that, Ronnie boy?” George smiled as the twins sat down.

“You're here?” Ron asked frustrated. He hadn't planned on the twins being there. He wanted to tell his parents and then let them get used to the idea that they have a gay son, and maybe they could help in telling the others. This was not part of the plan!

“Looks like it,” Fred said. “So what is it?”

“I'm not telling you,” Ron frowned. “I'll do this another time.” Ron got up and headed towards the door.

“Oh don't be like that, Ronniekins.” Molly said. “Tell us.”

“Tell us what?” Ginny asked as she walked through the door with little James on her arm, followed by Harry. Ron wondered if this could get any worse?

“Why is everyone here?” Ron shouted. “Bill? Percy? Charlie? Fleur? Anyone else hiding upstairs?”

“Don't be silly, Ron,” Molly said. “It's just family. Tell us.”

At least now he didn't have to go through this several times. It would probably be like ripping off a bandage, best to just do it quickly.

Ron sighed. “Fine!”

Fred clapped his hands and cheered. “Yaaaay”

“Oh, shut up, Fred!” Ron gave him an annoyed look. “Okay, the thing is, I've been seeing someone for a while now.”

“Oh that's great, Ron,” Molly beamed and Ron smiled uncertainly.

“And I think it's about time you meet him.”

“That would be wonderf...wait, HIM?” Molly looked positively shocked.

Ron blushed.

The twins lit up.

“Oh little sweet Ronniekins is gay,” George cheered.

“Who is it? Don't tell me it's Malfoy!” said Fred.

“Of course it's not Malfoy!” Ron was shocked that his brother could even suggest that.

“It's Finnigan, I bet it's Finnigan!” Fred proclaimed.

“Finnigan's gay? I didn't know that.” George said surprised.

“You didn't know Ron was either.”

“That's true.”

“No, I don't think it's Finnigan. Perhaps it's that Finch-Fletchley from Hufflepuff. He seemed like a poof.”

“Or Parkinson. Oh wait, she is a girl.”

“Are you sure?”

“No, not really.”

“It's Longbottom. I can see it on his face!”

“Don't be daft, George. Longbottom's too much of a badarse to be gay.”

“HEY! Would you two shut up? It's no one from our year.” Ron finally interrupted.

“So who is it?” Ginny suddenly asked.

Ron blushed even more and looked with pleading eyes at Harry, who seemed oblivious to what was going on. He was too busy playing with James on the floor. Ron wanted to kick him. He was ignoring him on purpose to avoid getting in a fight with Ginny, Ron knew it!

“Is he older or younger?” George wondered.

“Older.” Ron answered.

“Was he at Hogwarts with us?” Fred asked.

“Well....”

The twins began to throwing out names of students that had been in their year and even in Percy's, Most of them Ron hadn't even heard of. He couldn't take it anymore.

“IT'S REMUS,” he yelled.

Everything went quiet.

“Remus?” Arthur asked bewildered.

“Yes, Remus Lupin.” Ron stated.

“But, but, but...” Molly looked like she was going to faint and Arthur quickly pulled up a chair for her.

“But he's...” Molly started.

“A werewolf? Yes I know, but that hasn't bothered you before and it doesn't bother me.” Ron stated firmly.

“No, not that.” Molly mumbled. “He's...”

“What? Kind, considerate, nice to everyone, smart, funny, hot?”

“OLD!” the twins chorused.

The talk in the kitchen exploded. Ron couldn't make out everything that was being said, but the idea of this being like ripping of a bandage had totally failed.

“Merlin, Ron, you could have warned us.” Fred finally said.

“Warned you? I didn't realise there was anything to warn you about.” Ron said annoyed.

“But you shouldn't have sprung this on us like that.” George continued.

“Sprung this on you? How else was I supposed to tell you? Would it be better if I just showed up on the doorstep with him?” Ron couldn't believe them.

“Then you will bring him here for family dinner tomorrow.” Molly's voice suddenly cut through the argument.

“What? But is that a good idea?” Ron was shocked. “Isn't it a bit too soon?

“Of course not!” Molly continued. “Remus needs to eat too, you will bring him!”

Ron knew there was no point of arguing with his mother when she had put her mind to something, and found it best to just go back to Remus and break the news to him. They needed all the time they had to prepare for the dinner the following day.

***


“So how did it go?” Remus came towards him the second he walked through the door.

“Er... We're sort of invited for dinner tomorrow.”


Chapter 2

“Relax, Ron.” Remus said and smacked the nervous fingers that tried to fix his tie for the umpteenth time. “The tie is fine! I've seen your family a thousand times before. I don't think that a perfect tie will make any difference.”

Ron looked like he was about to make up yet another reason to leave when the door of the Burrow flung open and they looked at two identical grinning faces.

“Come in, gentlemen, come in.” Fred grinned and beckoned them inside.

Hesitantly, Ron and Remus made their way into the living room where the entire Weasley clan was waiting.

“Welcome,” Molly greeted them as she put a giant roast on the table. “Sit down.”

Ron and Remus found two empty chairs just between the twins and did as they were told.

The Weasley house had never been so quiet. There were sixteen people around the table, and the only sounds one could hear were the knives and forks, plus the occasional whining from either James or the younger Molly. No one said a word.

Ron looked desperately at Remus. Remus' brain was looking for reasons to leave, but he just couldn't come up with anything plausible.

The group ate in uncomfortable silence and Molly jumped from her seat the second the last member had finished the last bite, ready to clear the table.

“I hope you have room for pudding,” she called on her way out to the kitchen.

“I want to leave,” Ron hissed to Remus, but the man didn't get the chance to answer before Molly came out of the kitchen with the pudding.

“Dinner was lovely, Molly,” Remus said suddenly and Molly almost dropped the food from the shock of someone speaking.

“Thank you, Remus,” she said with a fake polite voice. She sat down and told people to help themselves.

Not much was said during pudding either, and Remus could tell that Ron was getting extremely uncomfortable. Harry, who Ron and Remus had counted on being their buffer, seemed to ignore the whole situation and concentrated on feeding James instead.

Ron turned to Fred on his side, hoping that his brother would say or do something hilarious to take the edge of things, but it seemed as if the twins were determined to let their younger brother suffer, because no one had ever seen the twins act so polite and quiet before.

“Okay, are we going to talk about this or not?” Ron suddenly blurted out.

Everyone stopped eating and stared at him. Even Harry looked up at what was going on around him.

“It's only Remus, for fuck's sake!”

“Ron! Language!” hissed Molly.

“Yeah, because my language is the biggest problem here.”

“Ron!” Molly warned him.

“Mum, it was you that insisted on inviting us for dinner. You could at least act normal.”

Molly didn't answer.

“Fine!” Ron said and rose from his chair. “I'm not staying here.”

“Where are you going?” Molly called after him.

“Anywhere but here,” Ron said and grabbed his coat.

Remus was so confused he didn't know whether to stay put or to follow. He wanted to follow, but thought that it might be considered rude. And seeing as he wanted the Weasleys to like him as Ron's partner, he didn't want to do anything to jeopardise that.

Molly jumped up and dragged Ron into the kitchen. Arthur followed, leaving the rest of the family puzzled by the table. Everyone looked at Remus, who had no idea what to say or do.

Molly's and Ron's voices filtered in from the kitchen.

”... he's old enough to be your father, Ron! He is a father!”
“So what?”
“Think about Teddy.”
“Teddy has nothing to do with this, Mum.”
“How do you think he will react?”
“Teddy is fine with this, Mum.”
“That's what you think. And what about Hermione?”
“What about Hermione?”
“Oh, Ronnie, why can't you give her a second chance? You were so right for each other.”
“Mum? Hermione is just a friend. We've been over this a million times already. Besides, she's engaged to Viktor.”
“That doesn't mean you can't try again.”
“Mum! I'm
GAY! Why can't you just accept that?”
“Don't you think he's too old for you?”
“Muuuum!”


Fleur rose from her chair and took Victoire with her into another room. Audrey followed with little Molly. The rest sat completely still, listening in on the conversation.

“Molly,” came the calm voice of Arthur Weasley. “I know you're worried about him, but it's only Remus. You like Remus.”

LIKED!” Molly corrected and the group heard a door open and slam shut.

The sound of angry footsteps up the stairs followed right after.

A sad-looking and confused Arthur came out to the rest of the family, who immediately started talking and walking around, pretending they hadn't caught a word of what had just happened.

Arthur sat down at his chair and looked at Remus, who was now the only person left at the table.

“I'm so sorry about this, Remus,” he apologized. “Molly can be a little overprotective.”

“It's fine, Arthur.” Remus mumbled back. “I know it must be very awkward for you.”

“She'll be fine. They both will. It's just their thing... bickering like that. They're both very stubborn.”

Remus smiled. He knew how Ron usually behaved when he didn't get his way.

“She just has to get used to the thought.”

The rest of the Weasleys had followed Fleur and Audrey into the other room, leaving Arthur and Remus alone in the dining room.

“Do you love him?” Arthur asked when the room was empty.

“I do,” Remus confirmed.

“Then I don't see a problem,” Arthur smiled.

“Thank you, Arthur.” Remus said relieved.

“I'm quite relieved, actually,” said Arthur. “I've had a feeling he wasn't into girls. And I'm glad it's you and not some other random tosser.”

***


“Ron?” Remus knocked on the door of the room on the top floor. “Can I come in?”

The door opened and Remus walked carefully into the room.

The sight of at least fifty Chudley Cannons posters met him before he saw a body on the bed. Face down in the pillow.

“Are you okay, Ron?” he asked gently and sat down on the side of the bed.

“Whadda'ya think?” a muffled voice came from the pillow.

“It's going to be alright, Ron.” Remus reassured him. “I had a talk with your father and he promised that it will be just fine.”

“That's easy for him to say.” Ron whined. “Mum's the problem.”

“Don't you think he knows her pretty well by now?” Remus chuckled. “And your father is fine with this. It could have been worse.”

“How?” Ron turned around and Remus could see that his eyes were red, he had obviously been crying, and Remus couldn't blame him.

“Because she's your mother. She loves you, she'll come around.” Remus stroke the younger man's hair.

“That's easy for you to say. It's not your Mum. You don't know what she's like.” Ron moaned and buried his head in Remus' lap.

“Have some faith, Ron. It's most likely just a question of miscommunication.”

“Miscommunication?” Ron sat up abruptly. “You heard her, Remus. Everyone in Ottery St Catchpole heard her. She was pretty clear about her feelings.”

“And what about our feelings? Don't they matter?”

“Of course they do.” Ron looked down.

“So what does it matter what she thinks? Your father didn't have a problem with this, and I don't think the rest of your family does either.”

“You didn't hear them yesterday,” Ron muttered.

“What?”

“You should have heard the twins yesterday,” said Ron. “I'm surprised they didn't jump right at you and asked you all the stupid questions I know they're just longing to ask you.”

Remus chuckled. “What did they say?”

“Nothing much except that the news seemed to be an early birthday gift to them, and of course they had to mention your age. Just like Mum did.”

“What else did you expect, Ron?”

“Huh?” Ron looked at him with a confused face.

“It's pretty natural for them to worry when their son and brother brings home a man twenty years his senior, don't you think?”

“I suppose,” Ron mumbled.

“I would be worried if they didn't react, to be honest. They only care about you.”

“I guess,” said Ron, hesitantly.

“You're lucky to have a caring family, Ron. We'll figure out how to deal with your mother eventually.”

Ron smiled and Remus bent down and kissed him lightly.

“Thank you,” Ron smiled.

“For what?”

“For dealing with my crazy family.”

Remus chuckled. “You know I love your family, Ron. But don't ever leave me alone with them like that again!”

Ron smiled. “I promise.”

“I don't care if you come down with an sudden, serious and infectious case of Pixie Flu. Don't run off like that, do you understand?”

Ron laughed. “I won't!”

“Now come here,” Remus said and pulled him into a tight hug.

“Are you ready to leave?” Ron asked when they finally let go of each other.

Remus only raised an eyebrow. “Do you have to ask?”

“Can we go to your place?” Ron asked. “I really don't feel like being alone in my crappy flat now.”

“Of course,” Remus said. “I've been meaning to talk to you about that.”

“About what?”

“Well, you don't seem to like spending much time there.”

“It's a tiny, crappy place. Are you surprised?”

“Not really,” Remus said, “but what I wanted to know was what you thought about maybe not living there anymore.”

“I'd love to, but it's all I can afford right now. I don't have exactly much money saved up. Most of it went during the planning of the wedding.” Ron sighed.

“I know that,” Remus said. “But I'm not talking about getting another flat.”

“Well, I'm not moving back here!” Ron stated.

“Ron, seriously,” Remus sighed. “I love you, but I didn't think you were this thick.”

“Huh?”

“I want you to move in with me.”

“Oh...”

“That way you can move out of your crappy place and have all your stuff at my place. Maybe you won't get so easily bored there either,” Remus smiled.

“I'd like that,” Ron smiled back and flung himself at Remus, kissing him madly.

He pushed Remus down onto the bed and sat himself on top of him, leaning down to kiss him even deeper. Pretty soon, Remus felt fingers trying to open the fly on his trousers.

“Ron, not here!” Remus hissed.

“Why not?”

“Your parents can come in and see us.”

“That's what makes it exciting.” Ron chuckled.

“I want them to like me, not scare them away.” Remus tried to push Ron away, but the younger man was too strong for him.

“What? Don't you want me?” Ron pouted and pretended to be really hurt.

“Funny, Ron!” said Remus. “But after what happened downstairs and you worrying about your mother, I don't think this is a very good idea.”

“I do,” Ron smirked and started to unbutton Remus' trousers. “It won't take long. No one will know.”

“Ronnie? I just wanted to -” The door opened before the two wizards had time to react and Molly dropped the tray of teacups she was holding and just stared at the scene in front of her.

“Uh.. I... have to...” she mumbled and walked away as suddenly as she had appeared.

“FUCK!” Ron said and jumped off the bed.

He started walking around the room, gripping his hair and muttered all the swear words he could think of.

“It's definitely time to leave,” Remus got his clothes fixed and pulled Ron out of his childhood bedroom.

They walked downstairs where a puzzled Weasley family looked at them and at a shocked and silent Molly on a chair in the corner.

“I'm sorry, but I think it's time that we went home,” Remus faked a polite smile to the rest of the Weasleys. “Good night to you all.”

Remus dragged Ron out of the Burrow and Apparated them both back to his cottage.


Chapter 3

“That should be the last one,” Ron panted as the last box was placed on the living room floor.

“How did you manage to fit all this stuff into that tiny flat?” Remus asked, amazed as he looked at the countless number of boxes on the floor.

“Don't tell anyone,” Ron said and dropped his voice to a whisper, “but I'm a wizard.”

“Hahaaaa, very funny,” said Remus and peered into a random box, pulling out an ancient Quidditch magazine. “What is all this junk?”

“Junk?” Ron gasped and walked over to the box. “You have all these old books and you call this junk?”

“The books are classics, and this old thing has almost lost all of its magic. Look at the picture on the cover, Ron. The player isn't even on his broom most of the time. The picture is a complete mess.”

“So what? This is a classic too!” Ron said enthusiastically. “It's from the European Cup of 1956 where the Caerphilly Catapults defeated the Norwegian Karasjok Kites. Their keeper saved forty-seven goal attempts and only let in five Quaffles!”

“Fine, I won't say anything,” Remus chuckled. “This is your place now, too, and we'll find some place for it.”

Ron grinned. “It is, isn't it? So can I put my things anywhere?”

“Of course. Well, anywhere except Teddy's room.”

“Yeah, that's my room!” a boy with blue hair jumped up from behind a box and grinned.

“How long have you been hiding behind there?” Remus said and grabbed his son and tousled his hair.

“Daaaaad,” Teddy squirmed out of his father's grip and looked into the box. “Whoa! Where did you get all these Chocolate Frog cards from?” Teddy asked amazed.

“Well, I've been collecting them since I was much younger than you, so I have a few.”

“I've never seen so many cards in my whole life! Do you have Aberforth Dumbledore?”

“Of course,” Ron said and began to search through his collection.

“Blimey!” said Teddy, his hair transfiguring to flaming red. “I've never seen that card before. I've heard that Aberforth bought all the Chocolate Frogs he could get because he didn't want anyone to have his card. Is that true? Because every time I get a new card I hope it's that one, but all I ever get is that Severus Snape guy. I get that he's an important wizard, but if I open a chocolate frog and see that nose again I will scream.”

Remus laughed out loud. “Poor Severus.”

“You can have it, if you want,” said Ron.

Teddy looked at him with big amazed eyes. “I can?”

“Sure,” said Ron. “I already have two, and I know that you will take good care of it.”

“I promise,” Teddy beamed and looked at the card. “Dad, can I call Jason? He will be so jealous when I tell him I got Aberforth!”

“Maybe later, Teddy. Let's help Ron get his things in place first.”

“Sure,” Teddy smiled and grabbed the card collection. “Where is this going?”

The two grown up wizards laughed.

“I'm not sure yet, Teddy,” Ron said and looked around. “How about on the bookshelf over there?”

He looked at Remus, checking if it was okay.

“Anywhere, Ron. It's up to you.” Remus smiled and kissed him.

“Eeeewwwwww, Daaaaaad!” Teddy moaned and covered his eyes.

Remus chuckled. “You will just have to get used to that, Teddy my boy. Ron is living here now, and I'm not going to stop kissing him in case you walk by.”

“But it's disgusting.” Teddy whined. “It just like when Mum is snogging Kingsley. Snogging is disgusting.”

“No, it isn't,” Remus said. “And in a couple of years you will agree with us.”

“No, I will not! I will never snog anyone!” Teddy stated and went back up to his room.

Remus just looked at Ron and laughed. When Teddy was out of sight, he leaned in and kissed him again.

“I'm really glad to have you here, you know,” said Remus softly.

“I am too.”

***


After two months of living together, life in the Weasley-Lupin household was as good as Remus could ever picture it. Ron seemed to settle in well, or at least he didn't moan as much as he used to when he was just visiting. Teddy seemed to get used to the idea of Ron always being there while he was staying at his father's, and having Ron around was certainly a thing Remus could get used to as well.

Harry and Ginny were frequent visitors, and Ginny seemed to be fine with the fact that her brother was with their old teacher. Harry was a bit more sceptical at first, but it didn't take long before he, too, was comfortable with talking to Remus as a friend and not only as a former teacher and Order member.

The twins came over one time to “see how Ron was doing”, but both Remus and Ron suspected them to play spies for Molly who wanted to know if there was any trouble in paradise.

Molly had not set foot in Remus and Ron's cottage, and they had not been invited for any more family dinners. Ron claimed that he was fine with that, and that he didn't want to be invited anyway. But Remus could see that it was bothering him. The redhead had to miss his family. Remus was sure of that.

“Ron?” he asked the half-asleep redhead one night. “I think it's time that we visited your family again.”

Ron sat up so fast Remus almost fell out of the bed.

“WHAT? Are you crazy?” Ron shouted. “Have you forgotten what happened last time?”

“Calm down, it was only a suggestion.” Remus said calmly. “And no, I haven't forgotten.”

“Why would you want to go back there?” Ron asked perplexed.

“It's your family. You clearly miss them.”

“I don't miss them!” Ron stated. “They were horrible and I don't want to see them!”

“They weren't all horrible, Ron.”

“You know who I mean, Remus.”

“Of course I do, but she is your Mum, and she's worried about you.” said Remus. “Perhaps she's changed her mind now that she's gotten used to the idea.”

“Oh, you think so, do you?” Ron asked. “Then why hasn't she called or dropped by to apologise?”

“I don't know -” Remus began.

“Because she isn't fine with this. And then I don't want to see her!” Ron stated and lay down pulling the sheets over himself.

“I still think we should give it a go,” Remus whispered as he lay down and turned off the lights.

***


“Hi Mum,” Ron said quietly as Molly opened the door with a shocked face.

“Ron? Remus?” Molly's face was pale.

“Come in,” she said after a while and beckoned them inside.

The two wizards walked into the living room where Arthur was sitting reading the paper.

“Ron! Remus! How good to see you,” he beamed as he saw them. “Sit down! How have you been? Are you settling in all right? How's work?”

“I'm fine, Dad,” Ron mumbled and sat down on the sofa next to Remus.

Molly hurried to the kitchen to make some tea and Remus took a hold of Ron's hand.

“It will be fine,” he whispered.

“Want to bet?” Ron whispered back.

“So, is anyone else home?” Ron asked his father who shook his head.

“No, just me and your mother,” he said. “Percy, Audrey and little Molly were here yesterday. Percy says hi.”

“Oh,” Ron merely muttered.

“So Arthur,” Remus broke in, “how is work at the Ministry?”

“It's fine, Remus. I'm currently working on a -”

But Molly came hastily through the door carrying a tray with mugs and was obviously determined to make as much noise as possible. She put down the tray and handed a mug to Arthur and one to Ron. “Here, with two sugars and milk, just as you like it.”

She grabbed a mug for herself and left the fourth mug on the tray as she sat down on a chair opposite Ron and Remus. Remus hesitantly took the fourth mug and smiled politely to Molly.

“So you moved,” Molly said to Ron.

“Yes, I did,” Ron answered and took a sip.

“So the flat wasn't good enough for you?”

“Mum, give it a rest!” Ron begged. “You know why I moved.”

Molly huffed and drank some of her tea.

“Thank you for the tea, Molly. It was wonderful,” Remus lied. He liked his tea with milk and sugar, just as Ron, but Molly had not put anything into his.

“How is work?” Molly asked Ron.

“It's fine,” Ron mumbled.

“Keeping you busy?”

“It is like it normally is,” Ron answered vaguely.

“Since you don't have the time to come over anymore, I assumed work was keeping you busy.”

Ron rolled his eyes and didn't answer.

“So, Remus. How are things in the werewolf support department?” Arthur interrupted.

“It's great,” Remus smiled at the man. “We're taking the kids away next weekend, let them get some change of scenery. We hope that it will do them good. It's not easy for them being unregistered and teenagers. The possibility for them to get access to Wolfsbane on their own is almost impossible, so I'm glad we can help them with some of their problems at least.”

“I'm glad to hear it,” Arthur said. “Are you taking them all by yourself?”

“No, all of us are going. I, obviously, can't help with any healing or other physical problems that might come up during the night, so we have a healer and -”

“Percy was here, yesterday.” Molly suddenly said.

“Yeah, Mum. Dad told us,” Ron said. “But Remus was telling us something about his job.”

“Little Molly is so adorable. You should have seen her. Toddled around the floor, bumping into things like they were invisible to her. Reminded me so much of Charlie when he first learned to walk.”

“Are there many kids in your group, Remus?” Arthur asked, ignoring Molly.

“She's turning one in a month, you know.” Molly continued.

Ron cringed.

“Molly,” Arthur warned her.

“What?”

Arthur just looked at Remus, waiting for his reply.

“There are eight,” Remus told him. “One of them is really new. Poor girl, only thirteen years old and this will be her second transformation.”

“Really?” Arthur sounded genuinely interested.

“Yes, so my main mission would be to keep an eye on her and to keep her safe.”

“Bill and Fleur are coming for dinner on Sunday. You should come too, Ron. Bill's been asking about you.”

“He has?” Ron asked in disbelief. “Then why hasn't he called me? And if I'm going, I'm bringing Remus.”

Molly didn't answer that but jumped up from her chair. “More tea?”

She didn't wait for an answer, but grabbed the mugs out of their hands and stormed off to the kitchen.

None of the three wizards spoke until she returned with the tray handing the mugs to her husband and son and then sitting down with her own mug. Remus took his mug of the tray and noticed the sickening amount of sugar poured into it.

Molly just looked sceptically at Remus and frowned when Ron grabbed Remus' hand.

“So, Remus,” she suddenly said. “Did you plan on ever telling us that you are taking our son from us?”

“Excuse me?” Remus asked astonished. “I'm not taking him away from you.”

“Is that so?” Molly continued. “Ever since he got together with you he seems to not have time for his own family anymore. He never visits, he never calls, and the last time you were here, you both were blatantly rude.”

Remus couldn't believe his own ears, he looked at Ron who seemed to disappear further down into the sofa.


Chapter 4

Remus slammed the door shut as he and Ron came back to their cottage.

“I'm so sorry, Remus.” Ron apologised. “I didn't know what to say.”

“Well, you could have stood up for me.” Remus threw himself on the sofa. “Instead of running out.”

“I never know what to say around her,” Ron whined.

“Well, you could have said something!” Remus shouted. “Instead you ran off like you did last time, leaving me alone with them, which you promised you would never do again.”

“I'm sorry.” Ron mumbled.

“I'm sorry too. For trying to make this situation better. Something you clearly don't want to do.”

“Of course I want it to get better.”

“Really?” Remus said sceptically. “You have a strange way of showing it, Ron. It's like you care more about pleasing your Mum than you care about me.”

“That's not true!” Ron objected.

“Then prove it!” Remus said and started to walk upstairs. “I'm going to bed. You can sleep in Teddy's room or on the sofa.”

“Fine!” Ron yelled after him and kicked off his shoes and threw himself on the sofa.

***


The morning after, Ron came up to Remus' bedroom with breakfast and tea, just the way he liked it. He apologised for being an arse and promised that he would fix the tension that was between Molly and their relationship.

Remus was still hurt, but believed his lover. The breakfast was soon forgotten on account of some steamy make up sex before Remus had to pack his bags to leave for the trip with the werewolf group.

When Remus got back from his trip a few days later, Ron was waiting for him with a warm water bottle, a hot cup of tea and a bunch of Remus' regular post-transformation potions.

The house was peaceful and neither man mentioned Molly for several days. It was just the two of them now. No one else mattered.

***


“Teddy, have you seen Ron?” Remus found his son sitting in the living room, watching TV. Remus had been searching through the entire house for his partner but couldn't find him anywhere.

“He's out,” Teddy mumbled while changing channels so fast it was impossible to see what was actually on.

“Out?”

“Yeah,” said Teddy. “He took his jacket and went out.”

“When?” asked Remus.

“When you went to take a shower.” Teddy said while focusing more on the cartoon that had appeared in front of him.

“And he just left you here alone? Weren't you supposed to do your homework?”

“I will do it soon, and Ron said he would be back soon.”

“That's odd,” Remus said to himself. Had Ron forgotten something and popped out to the store? Why had he just left like that?

Before Remus could ask himself any more questions, Ron came through the front door.

“Where have you been?” Remus asked.

“Out.”

“So Teddy told me. But where?”

Ron hesitated. “Oh, just out.”

“Out?”

“Yeah.”

“And you just left Teddy here all alone?”

“He can look after himself for a few minutes, Remus. He's not a baby.” Ron said while he kicked off his shoes and hung his jacket on a hanger.

“No, he should have been doing his homework.” Remus looked sternly at his son, who immediately picked up a book and a pencil. “And don't you think it's a good idea to at least let me know that you are going out?”

“Oh, I'm sorry Mr. Lupin. I didn't realise that I had to inform you of my every move. God, Remus. I was just gone for half an hour.” Ron muttered something and went upstairs, leaving a puzzled Remus and his son alone in the living room.

“Don't be mad at Ron, Daddy. I can look after myself.”

“I know you're a big boy, Teddy. I was just worried.”

Teddy just smiled at his dad. Remus tousled his hair and went into the kitchen to prepare dinner.

***


The following Saturday had started off great. Ron had made Remus breakfast in bed, something that earned him a special reward afterwards, and the two of them had ended up spending most of the day in bed.

Eventually, they made their way downstairs, and after a quick meal they sat down in the living room with Ron's old wizard chess set. They were in the middle of a game Ron obviously seemed to be winning when the younger man suddenly spoke.

“Er, I just wanted to let you know that I'm going out for a couple of hours tomorrow.”

“Oh?” Remus looked up from the board. “Where are you going?”

“There's just something Harry and I have to fix. Work stuff.”

“On a Sunday?” Remus wondered. “You never work on Sundays.”

“It's a special case, and they need us to solve it quickly.” Ron explained.

“Why didn't you have to go out today then?”

“What's with the bloody questions? It's just work!” Ron shouted and walked into the kitchen.

Remus had no idea what had just happened. Why was Ron acting so strange? He had never worked on a Sunday before, was it so odd that he asked a few questions? He followed the redhead into the kitchen.

“I'm sorry, Ron. I didn't mean for it to sound like a third degree.” Remus said and gave the man a hug. “I was just surprised, that's all.”

“It's fine.” Ron muttered.

“When will you be back tomorrow then? I can have something good prepared for tea.”

“Oh, that's not necessary,” Ron said at once. “Harry and I will probably just get something while we
re working.”

“Oh,” Remus said disappointed. “I'll just fix something for myself then.”

“That's probably best.”

“Is it an exciting case at least? Since they're making you work on a Sunday.”

“Sure,” said Ron, but Remus wasn't convinced. “I was about to beat you at chess, wasn't I?”

“Of course.” Clearly Ron was avoiding the subject.

The two of them went back to the living room to continue their game. Ron was as always extremely focused when he played, but Remus had a nagging feeling that something wasn't quite right.

***


That night, Remus couldn't sleep. Something was definitely wrong, and he kept tossing and turning. He went downstairs to get something to drink, went to the bathroom, got a snack, went back to bed, tried to read, but couldn't focus on anything except that Ron was up to something.

A horrible thought thought suddenly hit him. Was Ron seeing someone else? Had Ron met someone else? Someone younger, more handsome? Or was it a girl? Was it Hermione?

Remus looked over at the sleeping body next to him. He did not seem to have trouble sleeping. Remus felt the anger stirring inside him. He had to get out of the room. Out of the house.

Remus ran downstairs, threw a cloak over himself and walked out of the cottage. He started walking down the street and towards a nearby playground. He bet Molly would be thrilled if she knew. Trouble in paradise, Ron having an affair with someone younger and probably female, not a twenty year older male werewolf.

By the time Remus got to the playground he was furious and extremely hurt. A part of him told himself the he shouldn't be surprised that Ron found someone else. Someone closer to his own age. Someone who was not cursed and damaged, but he had really hoped that Ron would be the one. The age difference had never really been an issue when it was just the two of them, they had also known each other for a very long time. Ron got along perfectly with Teddy and Remus had really believed that this would work out.

However, now Ron was sneaking off and lying to him. Remus wanted to run back and shake him until he gave him some answers. He would at least expect Ron to show him a tiny bit of respect and break up with him before he started seeing someone else. How could Ron do this to him?

Remus knew that he wouldn't get a second of peace unless he got this sorted out. Determined, he started to walk with quick pace back to his cottage. When he reached the front door, he didn't even stop to think. He stormed up to the bedroom, turned on the light and stood right beside Ron's side of the bed with arms crossed over his chest.

“So, who is it?”

Ron moved slowly under the sheets. “Huh?” he mumbled, still half asleep.

“Who is it?” Remus repeated, a bit louder, to be sure that Ron woke up this time.

“Who is what?” Ron opened one eye.

“Don't lie to me, Ron. I'm not stupid.” Remus said and dragged the sheets off Ron's body.

“Hey! It's cold!” Ron whined.

“I'm not giving it back to you until you answer my question.” Remus stated. “Who. Is. It?”

“I have no idea what your talking about, Remus.” Ron moaned and reached for the sheets. Remus pointed his wand at them and banished them from the room.

“You've been sneaking around for weeks and you never tell me where you are going. Are you having an affair?”

Ron started laughing.

“Don't laugh!” Remus said angrily. “I'm serious! You're obviously hiding something from me, and I really don't believe that you are going to work tomorrow. So you might as well be a bit decent and tell me who it is.”

The laughter stopped. “It's nice to see how much you trust me, Remus.”

“Well, you're not making it very easy, are you?”

“I'm not having an affair, Remus. And quite frankly, I'm hurt that you thought that.”

“Where are you going then?” Remus demanded.

“I can't say.”

“Then you can't go!” Remus stated.

“Can't go?” Ron said shocked. “Since when did you have the authority to tell me where I can and cannot go?”

“Then tell me!”

“No!”

“Why are you being so impossible?”

“Why are you being such an arse?”

Remus turned. “I'm sleeping in Teddy's room. You can come in when you're ready to apologise.”

“For what?” Ron yelled and grabbed his wand. He summoned the sheets. Angrily he threw them over himself and slammed the door shut.


Chapter 5

None of them said a word to the other the following morning. Remus waited for Ron to apologise and tell him where he was going, but Ron had apparently no plan of saying anything to Remus.

Around noon Ron put on his coat and spoke the first words of the day. “I'm off then.”

The older man pretended not to notice and buried his face in the book he was pretending to read. Ron sighed and walked out of the house.

Remus immediately put down his book and ran over to the window. He saw Ron walk a few yards away from the house and then Disapparated. Remus sighed. He had considered following Ron for a moment, but now it was too late.

He sat down on the sofa. Where was Ron going? It couldn't be work, or he would have made some speech about it being a secret mission or something. According to Ron it wasn't an affair, and Remus desperately wanted to believe that, but Ron refused to say anything and that bothered Remus more than anything. Why couldn't he just tell him? What was he hiding?

“Harry!” The idea suddenly came to Remus. Maybe he could get something out of Harry! He hurried over to the fireplace, knelt down and threw some Floo powder into the flames.

“Harry?” he spoke when he got a clear view of a chaotic living room. There were toys everywhere and Remus tried to look around for a human being amongst all the clutter.

“HARRY?” he raised his voice, but no answer came. He was about to pull his head out of the fire when he saw a blond figure entering the room.

“Who's calling?” a young woman's voice asked.

“Luna?” Remus said puzzled.

“Professor Lupin?” Luna smiled. “Why are you calling?”

“Is Ron there?” he asked.

“No,” Luna giggled. “Why would he be?”

“I just thought he might be with Harry, that's all.”

“Harry's not here either. I'm babysitting little James. He's taking a nap now. The little boy was almost impossible to get to bed after Harry and Ginny left, but I managed to cast a tiny charm on him. You won't tell them, would you?”

Remus shook his head. “Of course not, but where are Harry and Ginny then?”

“At the Burrow of course.” Luna giggled. “Why aren't you there? I thought you would be there with Ron.”

“At the Burrow?” Remus asked.

“Yes, for Molly's birthday.”

“Thanks Luna,” Remus said and broke off the call.

He threw on a coat and Apparated to the Burrow. He didn't know what to say or do. He just knew that he had to get Ron.

He knocked on the door and seconds later, Molly stood before him.

“Remus?” Molly said surprised. “I wasn't expecting you.”

“I bet you weren't,” Remus muttered.

“No, Ron said you were at home with the Pixie Flu. Are you feeling better then? You're not contagious, are you?”

“No, I'm not contagious, Molly. Can I speak to Ron, please?”

Molly opened the door and let Remus in. The entire Weasley clan was sitting in the dining room when he entered the door. Ron's face was suddenly drained of all colour when he saw the man standing in the doorway.

“What are you doing here?” Ron asked with a shaking voice.

“It's Molly's birthday, I couldn't stay at home. Happy birthday, Molly.” Remus said while looking directly at Ron.

“Good to see you, Remus.” Arthur beamed and handed him a glass of Firewhiskey. “Are you feeling better?”

“Loads,” Remus said, and took a sip from the drink. “Can I see you outside for a minute, Ron?”

“No,” Molly interrupted. “We were just about to take the traditional family photo and no one is leaving this room.”

“I'll wait then,” said Remus and sat down on a chair while Molly tried to arrange everyone to fit into one photo.

After a few minutes, Molly had managed to arrange her husband, her children and their spouses well enough to set the camera. Remus watched the Weasleys suffer through what must have been at least fifty pictures before he finally managed to get Ron out of the room.

“This doesn't look much like work, does it?” Remus hissed when they were alone.

Ron's reply came quickly. “You followed me?”

Remus didn't believe his own ears. He was expecting an apology, but clearly, Ron wasn't thinking the same thing.

“Why did you lie to me Ron? Why couldn't you tell me where you were going?” Remus didn't even notice that his voice got louder.

“I-”

“It's your mother's bloody birthday, Ron. Why did you have to lie about that?” Remus shouted.

“Why couldn't you just let this go?” Ron suddenly screamed back. “Why did you have to make a big deal out of it and show up here?”

Remus gasped. “You don't want me here, do you? You're ashamed of me!”

“No, I'm not!” Ron objected.

“Yes, you are!”

“Well, you're making a big deal out of nothing and I didn't want to cause trouble on my Mum's birthday.”

“Your mother hates me, Ron. I didn't think that was nothing!”

“She doesn't hate you - ” Ron began, but Remus shot him a sceptical look so Ron never finished that sentence.

“What about the family photo then?” Remus asked.

“What about it?” Ron wondered. “We do it every year on her birthday. It's a tradition.”

“For who?”

“The family,” Ron said and suddenly realised what Remus was talking about. “Oh.”

“If she doesn't hate me, why wasn't I asked to be in the photo?”

Ron didn't answer.

“And why didn't you do anything?”

Ron was quiet.

“Because, I'm not a part of the family,” Remus sighed.

“It's not that, Remus. I just didn't want to cause any trouble. You'll be in the photo next year.”

“No, I won't,” Remus mumbled.

“What? For Merlin's sake, Remus. It's just a stupid photo.”

“It's not just the photo, Ron. You didn't even think about including me until I made you aware of it. And you weren't even honest about where you really were going. That says it all.”

“Says what?”

Remus just turned and Disapparated back to his cottage.

***


“Ronnie sweetie! What's wrong?” Molly pulled her devastated looking boy into her arms. “What did he do to you?”

“Big fight. It's over,” Ron muttered as he dragged a heavy rucksack into the kitchen.

“Oh, little Ronniekins, it was probably for the better.” Molly took out her wand and sent the rucksack up to Ron's old room. “Come here. Mummy will make you your favourite tea. Everything will be all right, my boy.”

Ron sat down by the table and just stared at the wall.


Chapter 6

Two weeks had passed since Ron stormed out and the little cottage seemed extremely empty.

Ron had not lived there for long, and Remus should be used to it being only himself and sometimes Teddy, but something was definitely missing.

He wasn't afraid to admit that he missed Ron, but he told himself that this was for the better. It wasn't good for Teddy nor himself to have a person living with them that wasn't serious about this relationship. It was better that they ended it now, rather than letting all parties involved get too attached.

Remus tried the best he could to not let his and Teddy's life get too affected by the break-up, but it was hard. Teddy seemed to miss Ron too, and only the mentions of his name stung Remus' heart like dark magic.

Whenever Teddy was there, Remus tried to put on a happy face and pretend that everything was fine, but when Teddy was with Dora, all Remus wanted to do was fall apart.

The last full moon had been the worst one in over thirty years. He really didn't want to spend the night with the werewolf support group, so instead he Apparated to the Shrieking Shack. That was a big mistake. Being alone in the Shack only made him remember and miss so many people. He missed his old friends, he missed Hogwarts and most of all, he missed Ron.

The Shack had been the place where Ron had first learned that Remus was a werewolf, and he had not once had a problem with that. The fact that Remus was a werewolf had never been an issue with Ron. It was just a part of Remus, a part of who he was. Ron was great like that.

No one knew that Remus was in the Shack, so there was no one to help him the following morning. The improvement of the Wolfsbane potion had come a long way the last few years, but the day after was still the worst day every month, and not having a decent bed to go to or any pain relief potions to drink, Remus spent most of the day on the floor, trying to gather strength to Apparate back to his flat.

Spending a day on the floor also lead to a lot of thinking. A lot of thinking.

***


Ron moaned as he threw himself on the bed in his old bedroom. It was weird being back with his parents. He loved them dearly, but living with them was a nightmare. He had never been the only child in the house before, and now he had no idea why he wished for that so many times when he was younger. There was no way of sneaking away from his mother. Ron was almost sure she had at least duplicated herself, because no matter where he went, she was there within seconds. The only place he got some privacy was in his room, so he stayed there as much as possible.

His Mum seemed to try to keep him busy. I guess it was her way of trying to make him forget about Remus, but it wasn't working very well. Nor were the constant hints of visiting Hermione or any other nice single girl she could think of. Ron had started off being polite and made up excuses as to why he couldn't go, but after a while he had stopped caring and stopped answering. He hoped his mother would take the hint eventually.

Staying in his bedroom, however, also meant being alone with his thoughts. He still didn't quite understand why Remus had gotten so angry. He had just tried to avoid trouble, and why couldn't Remus see that? He had known that Ron hadn't been ready to tell his family about them, and look how that turned out.

Still, there was no denying that Ron missed Remus immensely. There was not a day he didn't wish that Remus would show up on the doorstep and beg him to come home, but as the days passed, Ron realised that it was not going to happen. Remus was obviously, genuinely mad at him, and this made Ron angry as well.

The night of the full moon was the worst. Ron didn't sleep a second that night, but sat by the window, looking at the round thing on the darkened sky and listening for any howls or familiar sounds. He was worried, but after a while it turned to anger. Why was he even sitting there? Remus was probably running around in some forest with the other werewolves in his group and having the time of his life. Ron was the one sitting alone and not knowing what was going on. Ron was fuming, but he still never left the window.

“Ron, can you come down and help me with dinner?” Molly called from the kitchen. Ron moaned, but went downstairs. He knew that she would come and get him if he didn't show his face in the kitchen within a couple of seconds.

Molly smiled as her youngest son entered the room. “Oh, good. You can help me peel the potatoes.”

Ron sighed but found the potatoes and took out his wand. He was about to cast a spell when Molly grabbed his hand.

“Oh, use the peeler please, will you, dear?” she opened the drawer and took out the peeler.

Ron merely looked at her.

“It's so much better than a spell. The spells rarely get all the skin off.”

Ron sighed and started to peel the potatoes without the use of magic.

He was just done with the first one when he noticed that Molly was looking at him.

“Now what?”

“Well...” Molly said and grabbed the peeler and a new potato. “It's much easier if you do it like this.” She started to peel the second one. “Where have you learned to do it like that?”

“That's the way Remus always did it,” said Ron, and he could see that his Mum's face turned to stone.

“Oh,” Molly said and put down the potato and peeler. “Fine, if you want to cut your fingers, be my guest.”

Ron knew that his Mum hated the mentions of Remus' name, but he just couldn't help it sometimes.

The rest of the cooking went on in silence. Just like every other activity where Remus' name had come up.

***


“Daddy!” Teddy beamed as he came storming through the door. Remus jumped up from the sofa and put on a fake smile. “Mum and Kingsley bought me a new broom! Can we go outside and try it?”

Remus looked at Dora who was still standing on the front steps. “A broom?”

“Not a real broom. It only levitates a yard from the ground and it doesn't go very fast. Besides, you're the expert of protective spells.” Dora grinned, but Remus was still not impressed.

“Not right now, Teddy. Maybe tomorrow.” Remus said and took Teddy's rucksack.

Teddy moaned and walked up to his room.

“Are you okay, Remus?” Dora sounded concerned.

“Why wouldn't I be?”

“Are you sure you don't want me to take Teddy home with me? He can come some other day, when you're feeling better.”

“Are you suggesting that I can't take care of my own son?” Remus snarled.

“Relax, Remus.” Dora said. “I know it's a difficult time for you. I'm only trying to help.”

“I don't need anyone's help. Now if you excuse me, I apparently have a broom to try.” Remus said and slammed the door shut.

He sat down on the sofa and buried his face in his hands. Why was he being like that? Dora had done nothing wrong. He went to the door to apologise, but Dora had already left. Remus sat down on the sofa again and sighed. He felt a few tears roll down his cheek.

“Daddy?” an uncertain voice came from the stairs. Remus hastily wiped the tears away and smiled.

“Yes?”

Teddy came down and sat next to his father. “Are you okay?”

“Of course I am.” Remus lied.

“I can go to Mum's if you want.”

“I don't want you to go anywhere, Teddy.” Remus assured him. “I'm so glad you're here.”

“Then why are you crying?”

“It's nothing you should worry about. Now, I've changed my mind. I would love to see your new broom.”

Teddy cheered and ran to get his broom. Remus sighed and got up, trying to keep himself together for his son.

***


“Why can't you just go and see him?” Arthur Weasley asked Ron while the two of them were degnoming the garden with an enchanted catapult device Arthur had brought home from work.

“Huh?”

“Remus. Why can't you go and talk to him?” Arthur repeated.

“Because he doesn't want to talk to me.” Ron muttered and sent a gnome flying over the fence and out of sight.

“How do you know that?”

“Trust me, he doesn't.”

“What happened between you two, Ron?” Arthur sounded worried. “You never told us what happened.”

“Why should I? The only thing you need to know is that it's over and that he will never take me back.” Ron said and flung a gnome right into the fence, making it scream loudly.

“What did you do to upset him so much?” Arthur wondered.

“Why do you assume it's my fault?” Ron shouted.

“Well, you said that he didn't want to take you back, so I just thought -”

“It was a mutual agreement,” Ron said angry. “Probably the only thing we did agree on.”

Arthur sat down on a garden chair and looked at his son. “Listen, Ron. Relationships are hard. Sometimes people fight, you know that. But the important thing is to learn how to solve the problems and get through them together. Look at your Mum and me. Don't you think we fight sometimes? But we found our way to work through them, because we love each other, and nothing is more important than that.”

“Well that's the problem, isn't it?” Ron replied. “I'm not so sure about that love part.”

“I thought you loved Remus.” Arthur said surprised.

“I do! I mean, did. No, I do.” Ron said. “But I'm not so sure about what he thinks.”

“Really? He seemed pretty dedicated to me.” Arthur smiled.

“How do you know?”

“Just the way he looked at you and the way he talked about you.”

Ron was surprised by his father. “How did you notice that?”

Arthur chuckled. “I've seen a lot of people in love through the years, and there are some things you just can't hide.”

“You sound like the magazines Hermione used to have lying around, Dad.”

Arthur laughed. “Well, don't tell anyone, but some of those magazines aren't half bad. The Muggles write about a lot of weird things, but some things can be very useful too.”

Ron's lips curled into a tiny smile.

“Are you completely sure you shouldn't at least go and talk to him?” Arthur asked again.

Ron nodded. “There's no point. He's made up his mind.”

“I'm sad to hear that. No matter what your mother says, Remus is a good man. I'm sorry it had to end like that.”

“Me too,” Ron sighed and sat down on the chair next to his father.

***


“Dad?” Teddy said suddenly, making Remus jump.

“What?”

“You stopped reading,” Teddy said and looked at him.

Remus was sitting on the side of Teddy's bed with a book in his hand.

“Oh, I'm sorry, Teddy” Remus said and tried to find the place he last could remember, but the story looked completely unfamiliar.

“It's okay, Dad, we can read more tomorrow.” Teddy smiled and took the book out of his father's hands.

Remus smiled appreciatively and tucked him in. He kissed him lightly on the forehead. “Goodnight, Ted.”

“Goodnight, Dad.”

Remus had just turned off the light and was about to step out of the room when Teddy spoke again.

“Did Ron leave because I didn't like it when you two were snogging?”

Remus turned on the lights at once and stormed over to his son's bed. “No, Teddy, no! It was not your fault! Don't ever think that!”

“Okay,” said Teddy, but Remus didn't think he sounded convinced. “But why did he leave then? And why were you so angry with him all the time? He didn't do anything bad.”

Remus didn't know what to say. He wanted Teddy to understand, but he didn't want him to start hating Ron either.

“Sometimes grown ups do things they don't really mean to, and sometimes they argue.”

“But why can't you just apologise? And then he can come back and live here. I liked it when Ron lived here. He was fun.” Teddy was clearly more upset about this than he had pretended the last weeks.

Remus smiled. “Yes, he was.”

“Then why can't he live here?”

“It's hard to explain, but Ron won't come back, Teddy.”

“Is it because you don't love him anymore? Like it was with you and Mum?” Teddy wondered.

Remus felt the tears press in his eyes, but he tried his best to keep them away. He saw that Teddy was really worried.

“I miss him too, Teddy, but we have to move on, okay? We can have fun, too. Just you and me.”

“I guess.” Teddy sighed. “I still wish Ron was here.”

“Me too,” Remus admitted.

“Then why can't you get him?”

“That's enough, Teddy,” Remus said firmly.

“I'm sorry,” Teddy mumbled. “Just don't get angry, okay? I don't like it when you're angry.”

“I don't like that either.”

“So I don't have to leave?”

“Oh my gosh, Teddy, NO!” Remus said and grabbed his little hand. “I will never make you leave!”

“But Ron made you angry and he had to.”

“Teddy, this is different!”

“How?” Teddy looked at him with big, worried eyes.

“Teddy, you're my son and I love you. I will never make you leave.” Remus stated.

“But you loved Mum and Ron too.”

“This is different. I am your father, and fathers don't leave their children.” The guilt was pressing heavily on the inside of his chest.

“Do you promise?”

“Of course I promise! Teddy, I will never do that! You and I belong together no matter what else happens.”

Teddy smiled. “I love you Daddy.”

“I love you too.”

Remus kissed him and tucked the boy in again. He walked downstairs and poured himself a large glass of Firewhiskey.

He once again sat down on the sofa. He seemed to have spent a lot of time on that thing lately. The conversation with Teddy had really made him think. Why couldn't Ron come back and live there? It wasn't like Remus had ever stopped loving the lying and sneaking bastard.

Remus kept switching between crying and fuming, between missing Ron and being angry with him and between wanting to Apparate to the Burrow to get him and wanting to burn everything that reminded him of Ron until he finally fell asleep on the sofa.


Chapter 7

Another Sunday arrived and the Burrow was buzzing with life. The twins had come over for Sunday tea, and so had Harry, Ginny and little James. The family was sitting at the dinner table waiting for Molly to come out with yet another feast.

“Are you okay, mate?” Harry whispered to Ron, who was merely staring at his glass.

“Meh,” Ron shrugged, and kept staring at the glass.

Harry didn't get to say anything else before Molly came out, and the whole room exploded with compliments of how delicious the meal looked.

Half an hour later, most of them had finished their meals, but Ron was merely looking at the plate and playing with his peas. He had eaten perhaps one or two bites of the probably delicious roast when Molly came and demanded to take his plate. Ron didn't argue and let her take it into the kitchen.

Pudding followed, and Ron turned the whole thing into some sort of soup with his spoon.

“Okay, that does it!” Molly shouted and pushed her chair back so fast it tipped over.

He walked to the front door, grabbed a cloak from the hanger and left. George ran over to the window to see where she was going.

“She Disapparated,” he said confused.

***


“Molly?” Remus couldn't believe it. “What are you doing here?”

“I've come to talk some sense into you.”

“Excuse me?”

“Can I come in?” Molly asked.

“I'm not sure. If you've come here to have a go at me, I'm not sure if I should let you.” Remus said truthfully.

“Don't be silly, Remus.” Molly said and forced herself into the cottage. She sat down on the nearest chair. “I didn't think you were the type of man to give up so easily.”

“I'm sorry, what?”

“Oh, you know very well what I'm talking about.”

“What do you want, Molly?” Remus sat down on the sofa and looked at her.

“I've been struggling with a depressed and moping son for several weeks now. It's time you two end this stupidity. So if you would just come with me, we could put an end to this nonsense.”

Remus couldn't believe his own ears. “You want me to come with you? Are you serious?”

“Of course I am. Do I look like I'm joking?”

“With all due respect, Molly. Why would I listen to you after the way you have treated me the last few months? You can tell your son that if he wants to talk and he's ready to apologise, he knows where I live.”

“You must excuse my son, he doesn't always know what's best for him.”

“And you do?”

“Of course I do, I'm his mother.”

Remus snorted, and bit his tongue to keep himself from making a really sarcastic comment.

“And I've come to realise that the best thing for him is in fact you.”

Remus almost fainted. Did Molly just say that?

“I know it's a bit late, but the truth is that I've never seen Ron as happy as when he was with you. And he's been driving me crazy these last weeks with his moping and mentioning you every chance he got. He misses you, Remus. Now can you just go and fix it?”

“It's good to hear that you have finally changed your mind about me, but it's not that easy, Molly.”

“Why not?”

“Have Ron said anything about why he moved out?” Remus wondered.

Molly shook her head.

“So he hasn't mentioned how he lied to me and was embarrassed to have me around?”

“No he hasn't,” Molly muttered. “Are you sure that's the case?”

“- and that it was all because he didn't want to hurt your feelings? He didn't want to cause trouble, which I believe, from the impression I got from Ron as a person, is a first!”

“I'm sorry, Remus. I didn't know.”

“No, you were too busy trying to set him up with nice girls, I assume?”

Molly's face went red and she nodded, embarrassed.

“So, as I said. When Ron is ready to apologise and when he has finally decided to commit to this relationship, feel free to send him over.” Remus got up and opened the door, hoping that Molly would take the hint and leave.

“That won't happen, Remus. And you know it.”

“Why not, Molly?”

“Because he is as stubborn as I am.”

“Well, use your stubbornness to something good then.”

“So you'll fix this if I get him to come here?” Molly asked.

“Maybe,” said Remus, “but I want Ron to want this. Not because his Mum told him to do it. You will have him back within a week if that's the case.”

“Do you love him?” Molly asked.

“Very much,” Remus sighed. “Even if he is a stubborn git.”

“That's all I needed to know.” Molly said and stood up. “Now if you excuse me, I have a stubborn git to talk to.”

***


A couple of hours had passed since Molly had left the cottage, and Remus hadn't sat down since. He was pacing around his house wondering if Ron would show up or not.

Remus had no idea what he would say if Ron showed up, but he still walked around with anticipation, thinking that every noise he heard was Ron on the outside of his door.

“You're being stupid, Remus,” he said to himself. “Even if he decides to come there's no guarantee he will show up tonight.”

When the clock passed midnight, Remus gave up. Ron was apparently not coming. Reluctantly he went upstairs to go to bed.

Remus had just gotten into bed and turned off the lights when he heard a loud crash outside his house. He immediately lit his wand and threw on a robe before heading down to see what had caused the noise.

He flung the front door open, wand ready to hex a possible intruder and looked straight into a mop of red hair.

“I'm sorry!” Ron said. “I accidentally knocked over a flower pot. I'm afraid it's broken.”

“What are you doing here, Ron?”

“Mum -” Ron started.

Remus rolled his eyes. “So she told you to come here? It took you long enough. Why, did you forget where I lived?”

“Can I come in, Remus? Please?”

“Fine,” Remus let Ron come inside.

The two men just stood there looking at each other for a while.

“I was just about to go to bed, so if you can hurry this up -”

“I'm sorry,” Ron said. “I've been walking around for hours thinking about what to say, and I've been standing outside your door for at least an hour and a half.”

So the noises Remus had heard had probably been Ron, after all.

“If you're only here because your Mum told you to, you can save your breath and just go back to her. I don't want to hear it.”

“Oh shut up, will you?” Ron suddenly said and Remus gasped.

“Excuse me?”

“I said shut up!” Ron repeated. “I'm not here because she told me to. She disappeared during dinner and when she came back she just came over to me, hugged me and said. 'Remus loves you'. Then she went into the kitchen to do the dishes. She didn't tell me to do anything. I just assumed she had been here and talked to you.”

Remus didn't say anything, but was astonished that Molly hadn't dragged her son by the ears, demanding that he'd apologise.

“So is it true?” Ron asked.

“Yes, she was here,” Remus answered.

“No, the other part.”

“What other part?”

“Do you still love me?” Ron's voice was shaking.

Remus didn't know what to say. Of course he did, but he wasn't sure if he was ready to admit that to Ron just yet.

“Because I still love you.” Ron admitted. “And I'm so sorry for lying to you and ignoring you and for letting Mum be a real bitch towards you. No one else matters, Remus, just you and me!”

Remus felt a lump form in his throat and did everything to swallow it down.

“And I know that I'm a stubborn git, and that I can't cook and that I steal your socks and that I shouldn't let Teddy watch that much TV, and that I -”

Ron didn't manage to finish that sentence because his lips were suddenly attacked by Remus'. Remus grasped Ron's face snogging him in a way that would have made Teddy throw up.

Breathless, Ron looked at him and smiled. “So that's a yes, then?”

“Yes,” Remus smiled.

“Yes what?” Ron grinned.

“Yes, I still love you, too.” Remus said and kissed him again. “But if you ever let your Mum control you like that I will -”

“I promise, I promise!”

“Very well then,” Remus said. “Do you want to stay here tonight, or do you have to go home?”

Ron grabbed his hand and looked at him. “I'm already home.”


Epilogue

“Molly!” Arthur called out to his wife. “Come here, quick.”

Molly stormed into the room. “What is it?”

“We got owl post,” Arthur said and held up the most peculiar looking envelope.

Molly ripped the heart-shaped piece of paper out of her husband's hands and tore it open.

Small pieces of chocolate fell like confetti to the floor and Molly read out loud:

Dear Mum and Dad

Ronald Bilius Weasley and Remus John Lupin
request the pleasure of your company
in celebrating their bonding
on Saturday, June 10, 2006


“Oh how lovely!” Molly clapped her hands together and smiled widely. “A wedding! We need to start planning. I need to find the perfect cake. And you need new dressrobes, Arthur!”

Arthur laughed. “It's good to see that you finally have accepted Remus, Molly.”

“What do you mean?” Molly asked. “I've always liked Remus.”






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Title: The One Who Loves You The Most
Author: [personal profile] eruditefics
Pairing: Genfic about Ron and Rose with a side of Ron/Hermione and Rose/OMC (sort of)
Rating: R
Genre: Genfic
Warnings: Possible triggers, some violence, also some serious sap
Word Count: 17550
Summary: Ron struggles with fatherhood and raising a daughter while Rose struggles with demons no young woman should have to face in this chronicle of Ron and Rose’s relationship.
Author’s Note: Thank you for reading! This is the first and only genfic I have ever written, and I hope it is up to par. I think we can all understand what Rose is going through in this story, if not to that extreme, at least in spirit. Thank you to A for the beta, and to OtterandTerrier for the lovely piece of artwork. Lyrics by Brett Dennen


Title: "You Were Made To Shine On"
Artist: [profile] otterandterrier
Characters: Ron and Rose
Rating: G
Media: Photomanipulation





The One Who Loves You The Most:

When the sky is falling from above you
And the wind is raging from the coast
And you want someone who truly loves you
I will be the one who loves you the most


They say the moment you first hold your child in your arms, your life changes. Not true. For Ron Weasley, life changed the second Hermione got a positive pregnancy test and he found out he was going to be a father. Everything he had ever said and done took on a whole new meaning, and every plan…every endeavor became infinitely more important. After all, he was going to be somebody’s parent.

Ron spent ten months (he was shocked to find out it wasn’t really nine) trying to prepare for the arrival of his first child. He went with Hermione to all of her unsettling and graphic healer appointments, he learned construction spells and enlisted the help of every wizard he knew to build a perfect nursery, and he even mastered the art of warming up a bottle using boiling water instead of magic, which could scald the baby.

When he found out that they were expecting a girl, Ron was excited and scared. Girls were barmy creatures, full of tears, wonder, and likely wild hair. When he asked his father and Doctor Granger what he could expect, they both just shook their heads and laughed.

“Having a daughter will make you forget everything about yourself. Your world will revolve around her and her smile before you even know what hit you,” Dr. Granger said, upon seeing the ultrasound that showed the gender of their little bun.

Ron steeled himself against the additional warnings from Bill and George about temper tantrums and tea parties, and prepared to welcome his own flesh and blood into the world. When Hermione woke up in a puddle of something Ron didn’t want to examine more closely, he was ready for whatever the world wanted to throw at him. They rushed to St. Mungo’s in an air of excitement and panic.

Rose, they named her Rose, and she was perfect in every way. When he and Hermione brought her home, they just sat on their small sofa in their modest living room and stared at her with smiles on their faces. Hermione fed her and put her to bed, barely making it to their room herself before she collapsed in exhaustion.

The first time Rose woke up crying in the middle of the night; Ron leapt from his bed and ran to her. He knew that she was going to be doing this a lot, but the sound of her pained wails coming down the hall had him rushing to scoop her up before Hermione could even stir in bed. He took her up from the tiny cot they had put in her perfect little room and pressed her to his chest.

“It’s going to be alright, love, you’ve got me. Everything will be okay because I’ll always be here,” Ron whispered, pressing his cheek to her perfect, hairless head. She quieted for a few moments and Ron’s large hands held her close and warm against him. After a while, she stirred and fussed again, and Ron went down the hall to wake Hermione for Rose’s 2 am feeding.

His whole life changed when he found out he was going to be a father. But he lost a humungous chunk of his heart the first time her big blue eyes looked up at him, and the cries quieted in her throat. Ron knew that he would never stop protecting her, and he’d do everything in his power to make sure she cried as little as possible.

***************

“What’s Alpaca?” Ron asked, thoroughly confused.

“An Alpaca is a llama-like creature raised for the wool its fur produces. Alopecia is what our daughter has,” Hermione said, sadly. “I’ve tried every healer and every doctor, but they can’t grow her hair back. We’re going to have to talk to her, and look into getting her a wig.”

There was silence in Harry and Ginny’s sunny, well-appointed living room as Ron felt his stomach fall into his feet. What she had sounded like a real disease, something muggles like Hermione’s grandfather died of, not his magical little girl. He looked over to Harry pleadingly, but he just put his head in his hands.

“But she’s got ginger eyebrows and hair on her arms and legs!” Ron said, still confused how his daughter could have a hairless disease and still have hair.

“It’s specifically called Alopecia Totalis, and it’s the loss of all head hair. Some think it’s an auto-immune disease, but the cause is still relatively unknown,” Hermione explained, looking sadly out the window.

“Auto-immune? Is she sick?” Ginny spoke up, her eyes wide with worry. Ron’s throat clenched at the prospect.

“No, the cause is thought to be that the immune system, usually designed to go after foreign invaders and harmful bacteria, actually attacks hair follicles,” Hermione said, thumbing through one of the three books she had already bought on the subject.

“So will it ever grow in?” Harry asked, taking Ginny’s hand.

Hermione shook her head sadly, and Ron’s shoulders slumped. He imagined all the ways in which she could be teased, made to feel like an outcast and resent herself, and he wished mightily that he could take her place. He’d gladly go bald if it meant his little girl wouldn’t have to go through an ounce of pain or uncertainty.

A whimpering cry echoed from the second story of Harry and Ginny’s country home, and Hermione jumped up to fetch Hugo from his nap. The silence left in Hermione’s wake was deafening. Harry and Ginny looked about to speak at various turns, but Ron just turned away from them and watched the kids play out the window. He smiled sullenly as Rose ran from James, who was making a strange face and shouting in a made up language.

“She’ll be okay, Ron. She’ll just be a bit different,” Harry said, moving to sit next to him on the arm of the chair.

“Yeah! We can get her some wigs, make sure they stay on with some clever charms, and no one will know,” Ginny said, sitting on his other side.

“But she’ll know, won’t she?” Ron answered, anger and bitterness tingeing his voice. He didn’t want to imagine his children feeling different, feeling out of place in their own skin, and always questioning their own worth. The thought broke his heart. He stormed out of the house, slamming the back door and breaking the glass in his wake. He didn’t stop to repair it.

Ron heard his daughter’s pained cries from the copse of trees off of the yard. He found her sitting below a large oak tree, branches tangled in her clothes and sticking out of her shoes. She was curled in a ball and crying as quietly as she could.

“Rosie?” Ron said, kneeling down in the dirt next to her. “Are you hurt? Where?”

She rolled over, her large straw hat falling off of her head, and revealed a giant gash across her knee. She had angry tears streaming down her cheek and her fists were clenched. Ron summoned the dittany from Harry and Ginny’s downstairs bathroom.

“You have to be quiet, Daddy! They’ll find me,” Rose whispered urgently.

“Oh, were you playing hide and seek?” Ron said, cleaning the wound with a spell that made her cry out. He kissed her little knee gently, and she wiped her tears away.

“No, I was running away. But if you make too much noise, everyone will know!” She said, looking panicked.

“Doesn’t it defeat the purpose if your dad knows you’re running away?”

“No! You can come with me! I just don’t want Roxy and Vicky and them to find me out,” She said, playing with the hem of her shirt and beginning to cry again.

“Did they say something mean?” Ron asked, rubbing the dittany gently over her sore leg. She sighed a little in relief.

“No,” she mumbled.

“Did they chase you?”

“No.”

“Well then why would you want to run away from your cousins?” Ron said, pulling her onto his lap in the grass.

“They are too pretty. Vicky has all of this long, pretty hairs. I don’t have nothing!” Rose said miserably.

“Even Hugo has hair, Daddy. He has pretty curly hair like Mum. Vicky has yellowy hair, Roxy has curly black hair…everyone has hair but me. I just think running away would be a good idea,” She crossed her arms and looked away from him.

Ron’s heart shattered into a million pieces, and he had to swallow back a lump in his throat. He pulled Rose against his chest, like he used to when she was a baby, and pressed his cheek to her warm, bald head. He ran his fingers down the back of her head and over her neck, patting her gently on the back.

“Rosie! You’re very pretty. You are a special little girl. You’re smart, you’re funny, and you shine like the sun,” Ron said, at a complete loss for how to comfort her the right way. How do you tell a child that the reason she cries will never go away?

“The sun?” Rose said, squinting at the sky.

“Oh yes! The first time you smiled, I almost went blind!” Ron said, smiling down at her.

“What about my head?”

“I’ll buy you whatever hair you want, as long as you promise to always shine.”

“I will,” she said, standing up and twirling in a beam of sunlight coming through the trees.


 




**********

Though this potion is said to work wonders for temporary hair growth related to costuming, it like all other potions and tonics, will not replicate the lustre and color of natural hair…

The spell is only temporary, and no wizards or witches yet have been able to take off the time limit on this particularly conjuring of hair…

Despite theorizing and researching, top wizarding minds are still far away from growing and replicating human hair in any quick, permanent fashion hair. The advances in orangutan hair on the other hand…



Ron threw the overbearing textbook against the wall of Hermione’s study with alarming force.

A few days ago, he and Hermione sat Rose down and offered her any wig she wants, anything she chose to take the place of her own absent hair. Rose’s face lit up brightly, turned to Ron, and smiled and excited, hopeful smile.

“I want hair just like Daddy’s.”

Since then, Ron had been finding a way to grow his own hair, to make the perfect replica for his daughter to wear…to feel less out of place in the world. He was hitting dead end after dead end. Nowhere in any of Hermione’s vast expanses of useless facts, or her collection of books, or even his mother’s knowledge of home remedies did they find a solution for permanent and good quality hair growth. Rose would either end up having to drink a potion every day, or he would have to cast a spell on her smooth little head.

Ron sighed and slammed his head against the thick wooden desk.

“You know, you’ll still be her hero, no matter what you do,” Hermione said with mirth in her voice, tip toeing around the tossed book to set a steaming mug of cocoa down in front of him. Chocolate, in this case, was more appropriate than tea.

“Maybe now, but what happens when someone makes fun of her? What happens when they stare too long at her and she realizes how different she really is?” Ron said, thinking of all the ways his daughter could be hurt by the world.

“We’ll never let her feel that way, Ron,” Hermione said, her dark eyes so steeled with determination that Ron felt instantly more hopeful than he did a few moments ago. He kissed her soundly, lingering long enough to taste the whipped cream on her lips.

He knew what he had to do.

***************

“I can’t take much more of this! Every time I go to cast a spell, it gets caught. I swear I’m going to catch fire one of these days and George will laugh his arse off!” Ron said, braiding his waist-length hair.

“Oh stop whining. It’s a good thing you’re doing,” Ginny said, taking over his ministrations with deft fingers.

“I know, but do you think it’s enough? I just feel like this is a poor replacement for her.” Ron said, scratching his head and watching his daughter run and play out the window.

“Ron, even when she’s older, and she feels like it’s all hopeless, I’m sure she’ll remember what her father did for her and understand that there’s always someone out there,” Ginny said, staring fondly at her hands, as if lost in a memory.

“You know, Dad came to Hogwarts once, that year you were gone,” She started, sitting down at Ron and Hermione’s light oak kitchen table by the window.

“No, I didn’t. The Ministry let him in there?”

“No,” she smiled. “He was supposed to be patrolling Hogsmeade for Muggleborns, but he snuck up to the castle. McGonagall let him in by the greenhouses. He had to walk the whole way to the school in the cold, wet snow we got that November.”

“Bloody hell! He could have been killed!” Ron said, shocked by this new information. “Were you in some kind of trouble?” Ginny shook her head.

“He got to Gryffindor tower, and collapsed at my feet in front of the fire, shaking and cold. When I managed to cast a drying spell and warm him up he just grabbed me and held me for what felt like ages.” Ginny murmured, had her arms wrapped around herself and was smiling slightly.

“Why was he there, though?”

“That’s just it, Ron. He didn’t really have a reason. When he was getting ready to leave, he pulled away from me, healed a bruise the Carrows had given me on my cheek, and brushed some hair behind my ear. I couldn’t talk. I wanted to beg him to stay, but I didn’t want him to think I wasn’t brave.”

Ron put a hand on Ginny’s shoulder, his own throat growing tight. “He said ‘I just needed to see you. I needed to look at you for a moment, Ginevra. It’s all…it’s becoming too much.’ And then he just walked away, a slight hopeful grin on his face.”

“Ginny…I…”

“Neville, Luna, and I tried to steal the sword that night. I just had to do something,” She said, clenching her fists. There was a hot streak of tears running down the side of her face.

That evening, Ron went over to Luna’s house and had her cut his hair. She shaped it into a wig fit for his Rosie.

***************

By the time Rose Weasley was 11, she had five different wigs. She kept them all on stands complete with random doodles and oddly contorted features that she and Hugo would often paint when they were feeling particularly creative and fun. They lined her mother’s study like an odd array of modern art in her stately, wood-trimmed library. It didn’t matter how out of place she felt, Rose loved her hair.

She had a wig from her Aunt Luna. It had shoulder length, wavy blonde hair that shimmered almost unnaturally on a cloudy day, as opposed to shimmering on a sunny one. She said it was to “add some brightness to the gloomiest days”. Grandma Weasley got her the most perfect, curly black wig, found at a special shop while she and Grandpa Weasley were on holiday. It was long, shiny, and very curly like her mum’s. Her dad said she looked like a black haired version of Hermione Granger in that wig. Her cousins all chipped in and got her a Mohawk complete with green tipped spikes last year for her birthday, along with a written promise from each of them that they would keep her secret at Hogwarts. And Teddy had given her a cropped, bluish green wig that he took from shaving his own head.

But her favorite was the one her father had made her, the first wig she ever got, the first time she felt like a normal, pretty little girl. When she spun around, and that long red hair flowed around her, Rose finally knew what it was like to shine. Her mother had found a way to make her hair look so real, and to stay so well, that Rose immediately went and played with her cousins, reveling in the glory of her ginger locks.

Facing the first day at Hogwarts tomorrow, Rose knew which hair would become her permanent look for her educational career. The decision didn’t even take much thought. She felt like her ginger wig was the only real piece of her, partially because it was also a piece of her father.

“Have you packed your trunk for tomorrow, love?” her mother said, making Rose jump.

“Only like five times, mum!”

“Just making sure. You should get to bed; you’ve got a big day.”

Rose nodded, and before she could tell herself she was too old, she followed her mother out of the study and wrapped her arms around her. Rose was already taller than her mum, but that didn’t mean she wasn’t scared, that she didn’t need a little reassurance from her parents right now. To her credit, her mother didn’t make a big deal out of the rare display of affection, and Rose went up the stairs grinning.

She doubled checked her trunk, taking out every piece of clothing, books, and supplies and putting them back in; first by alphabetical order and then by function. When she was convinced she had her things in the best possible way, she finally changed into her pajamas and crawled in between the covers. She knew she wouldn’t sleep, but she had to keep up the façade.

After she watched the lights fade across the hall, signaling Hugo was fast asleep; Rose turned her eyes up to the moon. She wondered if it looked bigger in the Scottish Highlands, if being higher up in the mountains would make her closer to the sky. The concept gave her comfort, and calmed the niggling fears that were hiding below her excitement.

Rose started when she heard the soft creak of her bedroom door. She looked up to see her father squinting at her through the shadows. She lifted her hand and waved shyly at him, hoping he wouldn’t reprimand her for being up too late.

“I knew you’d still be up,” Ron said, pulling up the chair from her desk and sitting beside her bed. “Are you nervous?”

“So much!” Rose exclaimed, breathing a sigh of relief that she didn’t have to put on such a brave front.

“I’m not going to give you all that talk about doing your best, never giving up, and knowing you’re special no matter what. You know all of that. Just remember to trust yourself. That was always my biggest problem in school. I never thought I was good enough,” Rose couldn’t be sure, but it seemed as though her father looked a little stormy there in the darkness.

“I’ll try, Daddy,” she whispered.

“Do you think you’re too old for a story?” He asked, his eyes sparkling as he grinned at her.

“Well it depends on the story. I don’t think I need to hear Babbity Rabbity again.”

“Fair enough, how about I tell you about Hagrid and Norbert?”

“Oh I love the Hagrid stories!”

Rose sat in rapt attention, laughing hysterically at the thought of that big old giant’s partially singed beard. When the story ended, and Norbert had to leave Hogwarts, Rose couldn’t help but feel a little sorry for the Professor, and vowed to visit him as soon as she got to school. She hoped he had a secret pet for her to meet as well.

“And I’ll make a deal with you. If you can come home with good marks, I’ll be sure to take you to Uncle Charlie’s to visit Norbert. Or should I say Norberta?” Her father winked, kissed her forehead, and shuffled out of the room comically, making her throw her hand over her mouth to keep from giggling.

Rose knew this was going to be her best year yet.

***************

Rose couldn’t believe that someone as old as Professor Slughorn was still able to get up the energy to teach, but there he was, yammering on about something she couldn’t even begin to understand. She was beginning to feel overwhelmed, and suspected that she’d flunk out of Hogwarts before her first year was done. She bit her lip and tried to pay attention when suddenly a piece of paper obscured her own.

It’s alright, my brother told me this stuff gets much less confusing after the first week.

Rose looked up to see her dorm mate, Imelda Hall, smiling at her. She winked when Rose smiled back in relief and they both went back to taking notes. When it came time to create their first ever potion, a simple giggling draught, Imelda proved to be quite adept and helped Rose along in the process. Their potion was perfect by the time Professor Slughorn came around to inspect it.

“This is perfect, just perfect. But I wouldn’t expect anything less from the daughter of two war heroes!” The professor smiled. Rose shook her head.

“Imelda did a lot of the work, she had to help me,” Rose said, blushing. She hated having so much attention drawn to her.

“Nonsense. I knew your mother. You’re bound to be brilliant. Ten Points to Gryffindor!” Slughorn proclaimed.

Rose looked desperately over at Imelda, but the other girl was looking away from her. When class was dismissed, she followed Imelda into the Great Hall and sat next with her at lunch. She wanted to make amends. She didn’t want to lose any new friends on her first day of class.

“Listen, I’m very sorry about that. I promise, I wasn’t trying to steal credit,” she said to the other girl. Imelda looked up at her, anger still in her eyes, but Rose pressed on. “I’ve got some pumpkin pasties left over from the train. Did you want to meet in the common room tonight for a snack?”

“That would be great!” Imelda said. “You can call me Melly. All of my friends do.” She stuck out her hand and Rose took it hungrily.

Rose knew that her life was finally changing. She could be Just Rose, without the specter of her unique disease hanging behind everyone’s eyes. She finally had a real friend, one who wasn’t a cousin, and she knew that if she tried hard enough, other people could like her for who she was as well. She gathered her things and walked down to Professor Longbottom’s class with excitement.

When the masquerade and burlesque balls
Become too ordinary to boast
You complain about the parade and curtain calls
I will be the one who loves you the most
Yeah, I will be the one who loves you the most


“Okay, what does it mean when that symbol comes up in your runes?” Rose asked briskly.

“That it will be a…um…triangularly squiggly day?” Hector answered, smirking at her. Rose couldn’t help but giggle.

Hector Marks was a hopeless case, but Rose felt sorry for him, so when he walked over to the Gryffindor table and asked her to help him with his Runes homework, she said yes. The rest of the third year girls had been glaring at her all day. Hector may have been slow, but his sandy hair, tanned skin, and green eyes made many girls even in hears above him blush and swoon. She was uninterested, so she didn’t see the harm in some tutoring.

“I think you’re going to fail runes, Marks.” Rose said, smirking and gathering up her books.

“Oh come on, Rosie Shmosie, at least I’m trying!” Hector whined, stuffing his books in his bag before looking back at Rose and grinning.

“Oh….so it’s Rosie now, is it?”

Imelda sauntered out from in between the stacks of books in front of them with an odd and angry look on her face. Rose shuddered, knowing that look, and fearing it. Imelda had been her best friend since their first day at Hogwarts, when they got beds right next to each other. Imelda was everything Rose was not: Pretty, perky, popular, and a variety of other P words that Rose could probably come up with if she had the time.

“Melly, I don’t know what you mean,” she chuckled nervously as Hector walked away. She was definitely not into Hector, or any of the boys knew for that matter. It wasn’t that she didn’t like boys, she dreamed about the new drummer for Amorous Arachnids sometimes, she just didn’t really feel like getting caught up in that awful mess of school relationships.

“You know exactly what I mean, Rose! You know I like him and you are fucking stealing him from under my nose!”

“You’re being ridiculous,” Rose said, rolling her eyes. She was hoping she could just laugh off Melly’s anger.

“I’m being ridiculous? You’re the one throwing yourself at him when you don’t have anything worth throwing, Rose. Who are you kidding?” Melly said, following Rose out of the library.

“Melly, really. I’m not interested in Hector. He’s all yours.”

“Oh sweet Rose! How generous of you to just give him to me! Who would have thought that your nonexistent curves and knobby knees would make you queen of all? I’m ever so grateful that you could just give him to me!” Melly fake swooned and then stormed away down the hall, her heels clicking on the stone floor.

Rose’s own soft, sensible shoed steps slowed down to almost a standstill. She was at risk of losing her best friend, and she didn’t really understand why at all. Melly did have one thing right though: Rose was not a pretty girl, and she had nothing to offer the other boys even if she did like them. She paused in front of a mirror, viewing her too tall form; excessively thin legs, and flat chest with harsh scrutiny.

She didn’t even hear the heavy footfalls approach.

“That mirror will talk back if you spend too long in front of it,” Andon Krum said over Rose’s shoulder.

“Oh, were you primping, and it yelled at you?”

“Kind of. I was trying to get rid of these bushy eyebrows, and when I felt a cool breeze on my forehead, I had realized the spell backfired. The mirror mocked me awfully,” He said, smiling.

Andon Krum was the famous Viktor Krum’s son, and one of Hogwart’s most famous students. He was quiet, with dark hair, smooth tawny skin, and unfortunately pronounced eyebrows. He was her cousin Al’s best friend, so they often said ‘hi’ to each other in the hallways. Rose mused this may have been the most Andon had ever spoken to her or anyone else. When she looked up to catch his eyes in the mirror, however, he was gone.

The next few days were odd for Rose. She usually spent her free hours and the study time after dinner next to Melly, helping her with her homework and talking about the latest gossip. She had just seen Emily Harris and Rodd Flagg having a huge fight complete with drawn wands behind greenhouse 3, and she couldn’t wait to tell Melly. However, today, her best friend ignored her, didn’t sit next to her, and even went right up stairs when Rose set about to study.

Rose was writing a potions essay on Draught of Living Death when Melly came down. Rose tried to catch her eye, but she sat at a table across the room and focused on her work. After some time, Melly let out a frustrated growl and slammed her books on the thick wooden table.

“I can help you with that, you know,” Rose said as gently as possible.

“I don’t need help from the famous Rose Weasley! Besides, if it weren’t for me, you’d be failing potions. Of course, ickle Rosie can do no wrong. No one would even believe me if I told them!” Melly said, stuffing her books back in her bags. “I guess I won’t be doing any homework tonight, something smells awful in the common room.”

Rose waited until it was curfew, not wanting to face Melly’s wrath, before she went back to Gryffindor Tower. When she went up to bed, she was relieved to find everyone asleep, and got ready for bed in peace. She slid between the covers and sighed contently.

“You are such a slag, Rose,” Melly whispered. Rose’s heart clenched in her chest but she said nothing.

“Yeah. It’s bad enough you’re the daughter of famous war heroes, now you have to have all the guys too?” Christy Lane spoke from the bed closest to the wall. Rose sat up abruptly, shocked to hear her amiable roommate saying that to her.

“Christy, I swear, I’m not interested…”

“Oh don’t give me that tripe! You’re playing hard to get and its working! What happens when they get you, huh? You gonna give it up?” Christy answered back, rolling over.

“I still can’t believe anyone would want you, Rose Weasley. You’re gawky, you look like a boy, and you have all of that hideous ginger hair!” The last roommate, Jenny Riley, spoke up from next to Christy. Rose was without an ally at all.

Rose closed the curtains around her bed, cast the silencing spell her mother taught her, and stroked the soft hair of her favorite wig. She wished she could just write her mum and dad and tell them everything, but she was a woman now. As an alternative, she put her hands over her face and cried herself to sleep.

Hogwarts was never the same after that awful night. None of her roommates spoke to her except to deride her. In Herbology, all the girls threw things when Professor Longbottom wasn’t looking. She would have to pick seeds and pods and pus out of her hair every other day. She ate lunch alone, or next to Al, quietly eating and avoiding making eye contact with anyone, lest they say something awful to her.

Months after ‘The Incident With Hector’ Rose noticed more people than normal pointing at her and laughing. She figured Melly and her band of merry bitches just made up another rumor about her, like the one they started that she was having an affair with a house elf since no real people would want to snog her, until Al met her eyes and swiftly looked away.

“Al, what’s going on?” Rose asked anxiously. Al just shook his head, blushing, and signaling for Roxy and Victoire to come over to the lunch table.

Rose was happy to see her two older cousins, whom she rarely saw since it was their seventh year and they had N.E.W.T.S to study for. She smiled at them, but they had red, angry looks on their faces. Rose looked around the Great Hall to see that everyone was bent over their lunches, papers in their hands.

“Rose, I think you need to get out of here,” Roxy said, taking her elbow and leading her out to the lake. It was a warm April day, but there was a gray mist falling from the sky. Slowly, and cringing as she did so, Victoire handed Rose a piece of paper.

“Top Five True Facts About Rose Weasley
5. She picks her nose and wipes it on her nightstand.
4. She wears ratty white pants with holes in them.
3. She only showers once a week.
2. She’s a lesbian…
1. And she fucks herself with her wand every night.


At the end of the flier was a hand drawn picture of Rose, her finger in her nose, in holey underwear, stink lines coming off of her, a picture of Celestina Warbeck on the nightstand, and her wand animated to disappear between her legs.

Rose vomited in between her wracking sobs.

After that, her cousins and even her brother formed a tight circle of protection around her to make sure that no one ever did something so cruel to her again. Melly suspiciously came down with exploding boils on her face, and no one so much as looked at her sideways. In fact, no one but her family looked at her at all. And while she appreciated the help, she had never felt more alone. She couldn’t remember a night she didn’t cry herself to sleep to the whispered threats of her roommates.

“In two years, James, Roxanne, Victoire and Fred are going to be gone. We’ll be able to get to you then.”

Even writing her parents was an awful experience. She didn’t want them to worry, so she would write sugary sweet letters filled with lies. She hoped she wouldn’t be found out. When she was little, she promised her dad she would always shine like the sun. She was scared to death he’d discover how dull and miserable she really was.

Rose didn’t think she could handle seeing her father disappointed in her.

***************


Dear Ron and Hermione,

I know we just saw each other at dinner a few weeks ago, but I’ve been trying to find a way to put my thoughts in to words on this for a while now. So I’ll just come right out and say it:

I’m very worried about Rose.

I don’t want you both to come rushing down here like I know you were planning to do as soon as you read that sentence, but I am very concerned. While she’s never alone, always with one cousin or the other, she seems so lonely. She never speaks anymore, it looks as though her grades are slipping despite spending all of her free time in the library, and she seems to have gotten even thinner. It looks to me like she’s under a large amount of stress, and for a while I couldn’t figure out why that was.

I finally managed to get Albus to sit down and talk to me. I pause in telling you this because it’s Rose’s business, but worrying has gotten the best of me. He says she’s being bullied, mercilessly, by the other girls in her dorm. He’s not sure how it started, but the stuff they’ve been doing to her makes Malfoy look like a peach (well…maybe this is an exaggeration).

I’m going to do my best to keep an eye on her, and to try to put a stop to anything I see. Her cousins and Hugo are doing well to form a tight circle of protection around her, but that doesn’t lessen the sharp words. I hope that this can be worked out over the summer.

Hannah says that she went through something similar, and it takes a lot to recover from it. The bullying stopped for her when her mum died, and then we had that awful year and Death Eaters to contend with, so she never really had to face how cruel some of those Hufflepuffs were. But she says it was a horrible thing to deal with, and if Rose is suffering, I hope there is something you can do to help her.

I’ll do what I can.

Always with love,

Neville



“Are you sure we can’t go there and get her right now?” Ron said, pacing anxiously across the kitchen, Neville’s letter clutched in his fist.

“Yes, Ron. Unfortunately, it would likely just exacerbate things,” Hermione said. Ron looked over at her to see tears rolling down her cheeks. “What are they doing to her that could make her act this way?”

“And why didn’t she say so in her letters home?” He asked, walked up behind Hermione and putting his hands on her shoulders. “Is that why she didn’t come home for Easter hols?”

“She’s probably scared of what we’ll think,” Hermione whispered.

“How can she…”

“Shhhhhhh, she’ll be home soon, Ron. All we can do now is wait for her and trust that Neville will make sure she doesn’t get hurt.”

“Yeah…yeah.”

Ron leaned over and kissed Hermione on the cheek before resting his head on her shoulder and holding her tightly. He let his hands splay over her stomach and found comfort in how warm she always felt against him. They would get through this with Rose, they had to.

***************

When Rose got off the train for summer holidays, Ron’s heart shattered. Her bright long hair framed a sunken, gaunt, and pale appearance. She had a frown etched on her face and she looked like she had been through hell. Ron ran to her, heedless of Hermione’s warnings not to make her feel overly self conscious and giving away the fact that they knew what had been going on, and pulled her close to his chest. She let out a small, hollow chuckle.

“Dad, what’s gotten into you?”

“Just happy to see you,” he smiled, trying not to give himself away.

Rose tilted her head and gave him an odd, calculating look, the exact same look Hermione got when she was figuring something out. Ron shrank away. He saw Hugo’s curly head bobbing in the crowd and ran toward him, hugging him fiercely and messing up his hair. When he turned around, Rose had her face in her mother’s hair, and Ron could see tears going down her cheek. Hugo bit his lip and Ron tried not to stare. Obviously Rose didn’t want him to see her cry, though he didn’t quite understand why.

After their things were unpacked, they all sat down to a lovely supper of roast chicken and mashed potatoes, Ron’s specialty. Rose smiled at him as he handed her a plate, but the smile never reached her eyes and he could see the hard mask over her features. He tried to smile back in a way that said “Don’t worry about it, love,” But nothing changed about her expression. The conversation at the table was light. Rose and Hugo asked him about some of his Auror missions, and he tried to describe the funnier ones with a storytelling flare that was sure to light up her face, like it did when she was little. However, her eyes remained passive and resigned. Finally, after some time with Hugo at the chessboard and Rose and Hermione in books, the kids were sent up to bed.

Ron didn’t sleep that night. He tossed and turned, kicking himself for not seeing the trouble his daughter was having when she came home for Christmas. The fact that she didn’t want to talk to him about it just clarified his belief that he had failed her. Ron resolved he would spend the entire summer making things right, making sure Rose went back to school without the specter of cruelty chasing her everywhere.

Ron’s resolve was quickly dashed over the next week, when he would wake to Rose missing from her bed and outside wandering their lawn sadly, turning away from any attempt at conversation. She spent her time drinking tea with her mother, and cried herself to sleep at night. She barely looked at Ron, barely acknowledged him beyond a fake smile at his failed attempts to cheer her, and his countenance was getting weaker every day.

His daughter was slipping away, she was in pain, and there was nothing he could do to make it better. This wasn’t a cut on the knee, or a cousin picking on her, this was a painful betrayal by her peers. Ron was completely lost, and after a few weeks of trying to break through to her, gave up and turned his back on his oldest daughter.

Ron spent the rest of the summer teaching Hugo the finer points of chess, and trying to get him onto a broom. Hugo had an unshakable fear of flying just like his mother, and Ron found this fact hilarious. His son was much happier indoors, studying chess, and to Ron’s horror, History of Magic. But he had to admit, his son was developing a wit and a sense of humor that would rival Fred and George at that age.

Rose went flying, but she never asked for his company. She no longer played quidditch like she used to, even when her cousins were all gathered for a pickup game. She just drew lazy circles in the sky with her broom, consumed more tea with her mother, and slept more than was normal for a teenage girl. Ron longed to jump on his broom and chase her through the sky like they used to, dipping in and out of each other’s paths and laughing loudly and wildly until the sun set. He swallowed back the urge to fly, keeping his feet on the ground and giving Rose her space.

When it came time to say goodbye for another year at Hogwarts, Ron found he couldn’t maintain his self control. He held Rose tightly again, stroking her back and refusing to let go. She clung to him, her hands clenched in the back of his robes, and Ron felt the urge to cry rising up from his throat. He didn’t want to send his daughter back into the wolves, and he hated himself for not being there for her like he should have. Rose pulled away with misty eyes and got on the train. She doesn’t turn around to wave at her parents.

***************

When the women with their stolen graces
Don’t invite you to play host
To their daughters with fake faces
I will be the one who loves you the most


“I guess I’ve gotten a reputation for tutoring,” Rose says quietly, pulling out her book and taking up a seat next to Andon. “I didn’t even know you needed help.”

“Oh yes. I hear you’ve got this new potions material down. Al won’t stop talking about how brilliant you are in that class, so I figured you’d be the best to help me,” Andon said, getting his own books and notes out. He smiled shyly at Rose, and she was shocked to feel a blush creeping to her face.

Andon was a Hufflepuff, so he had a different potion’s class than she did. Hufflepuffs took potions with the Slytherins for fourth year, and they were only a chapter behind the Gryffindor and Ravenclaw class. This made it very easy for Rose to explain the lessons to him, and they ended up meeting every Friday in the library to go over what she learned last week, and he was learning this week.

More than just lessons, Andon and Rose became very good friends. Eating lunch with Al didn’t feel so much like a pitiful excuse to not be alone, and felt more like a warm group of friends. She, Al, and Andon would joke and laugh like the world wasn’t against her, and when she was with Al and Andon, it wasn’t. The whispers and taunts in the hall seemed less important, and no one had done anything particularly awful to her. By the Christmas hols, things were looking up.

Rose suspected that Professor Longbottom had done something; there were rumors he had called Melly into his office and she had come out in tears. At first Rose was embarrassed, but now that she finally had a friend, Professor Longbottom’s interference was feeling like a relief. She got off of the train for Christmas and waved vigorously at Andon, who pulled a ridiculous face before running off with his mother.

When Rose saw her father waiting to pick them up at King’s Cross, she gave him a broad grin. He echoed her gesture, his face lighting up as he saw her. Christmas was looking promising, and she longed to jump on her broom and race her dad like they used to.

***************

“He’s way too good for you, you know,” whispered Christy.

“Yeah, Rosie, he’ll never want you in that way. He just feels sorry for you,” Jenny said menacingly. Rose knew they were talking about Andon. She knew she could never win no matter how hard she tried.

“Yeah I heard Al paid him a lot of money to be your friend,” Melly seethed next to her. “Think about it, you know Al’s family has a lot of gold. Did you really think Andon just suddenly wanted to be your friend this year, especially with how pathetic you are? I have it on good authority Al Potter paid him.”

Rose didn’t want to believe them, but they were right. Al did have a lot of money, and Rose was pathetic. The next day, she ate alone and canceled all of her tutoring sessions with Andon.

“Why don’t you want to hang out anymore, Rose?” Andon found her tucked away in a corner of the library.

“I just…I’m really busy. I have to focus on my studies.”

“You’re brilliant!” Andon whispered loudly, earning him an admonishment from the ancient Madame Pince. “You don’t need to study that much that you can hang out with me and Al. Come on, we were going to go camping this summer!”

Andon put a hand on her arm and Rose flinched away. She knew then it had to be some sort of scheme. Why would anyone want to touch her? Even without knowing she had no hair, she was still all long limbs and freckled skin. She dropped her books and stormed out of the library.

Rose found herself lost in an unfamiliar corridor as she ran away from Andon. She was happy to be lost, and hoped the castle would just swallow her whole. She crouched down in front of an ornate tapestry and began to cry. She didn’t know how long she was there, but when she looked up at the window some time later, it was dark.

“What’s the matter, Weasley, wig not on straight?” Melly’s voice echoed in the hallway. All of the blood drained from Rose’s face. Melly just smiled fiendishly.

“A little birdie had some very interesting things to say about that awful ginger hair, though why you’d choose to be ginger is beyond me.”

“I have no idea what you are talking about. “

“Admit it!” Melly shouted, her screams bouncing off of the walls. “Admit that you’re an even bigger freak that we thought you were! You would keep a secret from your own roommate.” Her voice took on a falsely sweet tone toward the end.

Rose just shook her head, and when she looked up, Melly was gone.

The next morning couldn’t come soon enough; she was going home for the summer and didn’t have to face Andon, or Melly, or any of her tormentors for three whole months. She snuck back into Gryffindor Tower as quietly as she could, and slip between her sheets for one more sleepless night.

Rose had slept in that night. She woke up to the light far too brightly streaming through her window. She glanced over at her clock and saw she had missed breakfast and only had 15 minutes to pack up her things and get down to the carriages. She sat up only to feel something like spiders crawling down her bare shoulders. She looked down and saw clumps of red hair gathering around her pillow.

She didn’t even have time to mourn or cry the cruel act that had befallen her. She only had moments to rush down to the carriages. She pulled an old wool cap out of her trunk and stuffed it over her head. She cast ‘locomotor’ on her trunk, shoved in the rest of her belongings, and rushed out of the tower.

She had no doubt all three of the girls in her room were in on the plot against her, that much became clear as they looked at her with taunting sneers and threw their heads back in laughter. “Nice Hat!” they shouted in unison as she took a carriage with a few second years she didn’t know. She allowed herself to cry, telling the kids that she just had a headache.

When she got off the train and saw her parents smiling at her, she broke down, sobbing into her father’s shoulder and refusing to tell them what was wrong. She’d have to tell them soon enough.

***************

“Why won’t she just tell us what happened?” Ron said, pouring himself two fingers of Ogden’s and plopping down at the kitchen table. Rose and Hugo were asleep, and he needed something stronger after such a trying day than tea.

“We can guess ourselves who’s responsible. It’s those same girls Neville mentions in his letter. Who else could have gotten into their room?” Hermione said. To Ron’s shock, she fixed herself a neat glass of whiskey herself.

Ron opted to pour another shot of whiskey, hoping he’d be tired enough to get some sleep with enough alcohol in his system. They had a long day tomorrow. They had to go out and find a similarly colored wig for Rose to wear so that her secret wasn’t revealed.

Ron and Hermione moved to their living room, sat in front of the fire, and immersed themselves in the silence of their own thoughts.

The summer progressed on with a return of the Rose they saw last summer. The happy, hopeful girl they had seen over Christmas was replaced with a sullen, undetermined young woman who looked up at her parents with lifeless, dull eyes. Ron tried hard to engage her, making funny faces, bringing her sweets, and tempting her with a new broom, but she preferred to sit in her room, reading her textbooks and napping.

Hermione had managed to get Rose out every once in a while, and they went to various tea shops to talk. Hermione said that Rose was opening up about her year, but whenever Ron tried to talk to her, she turned away from him. He was hurt and worried, wondering if he’d ever have his little girl back again. He doubted she even wanted him around.

When it came time for the planned trip to the seashore, Ron wasn’t surprised to find out that Rose didn’t want to go. Hugo’s spirits sank, saying he was really looking forward to the museums and the fresh air. Not wanting to let another one of his children be disappointed, he agreed to go with Hugo while Hermione stayed home and tried to crack Rose’s rough shell.

The seashore was perfect, and he and Hugo had the time of their lives. Ron couldn’t help but laugh as Hugo ogled the various Muggle women that sauntered by them in bathing suits, and the week was spent with good natured ribbing and rousing games of chess in the sand. Ron headed back home sporting even more freckles than before, and Hugo had a deep tan that reminded Ron of Hermione when she came back from Australia.

While waiting for the Portkey to take them back to London, Ron looked over at Hugo. His son looked happy and contented, and on the verge of becoming a fine man. Ron felt a stab in his chest when he thought about Rose, and while he was thrilled Hugo was doing so well, he didn’t feel like he’d be able to rest again until he got through to Rose. He resolved to take Rose on a little adventure when he got home.

***************

“Get up, we’re going out,” Rose’s father said, far too loudly.

Rose rubbed her eyes and tried to focus on the dim light in her room. There was light coming from her father’s wand, but other than that, the room was pitch black. Rose thought her father must have gone mad while he was at the beach.

“Dad, it has to be the middle of the night, what is going on?”

“We’re going camping.”

“What? What about mum and Hugo?”

“Hugo had his trip. Your mum knows we’re going, don’t worry. Do you honestly think I would just take off at 4 in the morning without clearing it with her?” Her father asked, summoning a suitcase from another room. When she sat up and looked out the door, she saw her grandfather’s old tent and a sack full of supplies already piled in the hallway.

“Sweet Merlin, you’re serious.”

“Course I am, Rose,” he said, sitting on the end of her bed. “I know you’re having a rough time. I’m not going to pretend I know what you’re going through…but…well that’s just the thing! You won’t talk to me, you won’t look at me! I just…” He paused, running his hands through his hair. Rose had never seen him look so frustrated. “Try avoiding me when we’re alone in the woods.”

With that, he left the room, and Rose reluctantly got out of her bed. She knew better than to question her dad further. When he got an idea in his head, there was no stopping him. There was evidence of that all over the house, from the Quidditch Pitch in the backyard, too small to actually have a real game, to the microwave in the kitchen that could work instantly with one spell. If she were being honest with herself, Rose had to admit, she was a little excited at the prospect of an adventure with her dad. She couldn’t remember the last time she was excited for anything.

When Rose followed Ron out into the garage, she let out a small yelp. Parked where her parent’s cars usually were was a shiny, old looking motorcycle with a round sidecar attached. The bike looked like it was in perfect condition, despite also appearing as though it was made in the forties. She could feel the magic buzzing all around the motorcycle, and couldn’t help but put her hand out and run her fingers over the rounded fenders above the wheels.

“Fancy, isn’t it? It’s Harry’s. Well it was Sirius Black’s, Then Hagrid’s, then my dad got a hold of it and tweaked it a bit, then it was Hagrid’s again…and now it’s Harry’s. I’m sure James already has his eye on it, but I asked Harry to borrow it for now. Thought we could travel in style!” Ron said, smiling brightly. He shrunk down their things and put it in the small case behind the seat.

Now, Rose was smiling for real. The prospect of taking a motorcycle out in the early morning with her dad was such a delicious escape that she could feel the weight already lifting from her. She just hoped he didn’t make her talk too much about what’s been happening at school. She couldn’t face disappointing him any further than her sullen attitude already was.

They took off from their quiet suburban street and headed toward the countryside. The moment they were out of the city, her father looked over at her, grinned, and pulled a lever. Rose shouldn’t have been surprised that the bike could fly, but she found herself trying to catch her breath as they soared through the sky. She wanted to laugh and scream and cry all at once against the maddening rush of cool, cloudy air. She felt free and a little more fearless in this circular sidecar next to her dad.

The landed an hour later in a dense forest. She could not see a single light or house anywhere, and the prospect of seclusion seemed brilliant to her. She was suddenly mournful that she hadn’t thought to pack her broom. Rose hadn’t ridden her broom in ages, but out in the forest, the thought was creeping up on her and seeming appealing again.

After her father set up the tent and lit the fire, they went about getting dinner together. He was very excited to be using the hot dog roasting sticks that he had bought at a Muggle camping store, and Rose had to laugh as he explained to her how a toasty worked. His excitement over it all was charming and put her at ease.

While she was munching on her hot dog, doused with mustard the way she liked it, she caught her dad looking at a rock in their clearing with a haunted expression on his face. It wasn’t a remarkable stone, but it bore burn marks as though some sort of magical battle was fought there. Her curiosity piqued.

“Dad? Where are we at exactly?”

Ron cleared his throat and took a second before answering. “We’re in the forest of Dean, love.”

“Have you been here before?”

“Yeah…yeah. I was here once,” he shook his head and shed the dark look from his face. “Hey! Let’s go on a hike. There’s a pond just over head, and I’m curious to see if it’s more beautiful when it’s not frozen over.”

After a relaxing swim and a nap on the shore, her dad made them a dinner of toasted cheese sandwiches and crisps. He also reluctantly ate some carrots and asked her to do the same. She had a feeling her mum may have made him to that, but she found herself smiling as he took each bite with a sour look on his face.

“I left your mother once,” he said suddenly, throwing the carrots off to the side. His blue eyes were sharp as he looked at her, and Rose found herself speechless.

“But you and mum said that once you finally got around to it, you were inseparable.”

“This was before we got our act together, while we were fighting the war with Uncle Harry. Harry and I got into a big fight, Hermione stepped in, and I walked away from them and from the mission. I left them in the woods while I skulked away with my tail between my legs.”

Rose was speechless; she had no idea how to respond to her father’s confession. She had heard many tales about the war, from the hunt for the horcruxes to the story of Teddy’s parents, but she had never heard about this. Her father’s shame was etched across his face.

“You remember us telling you about the horcruxes?”

“Yeah, dad, don’t remind me.”

“Well, there was one. The first one we had to destroy. It was a locket, and while we were in hiding we all took turns wearing it. When I wore it, it would make all of the awful thoughts in my head come to the surface, all of my fears would magnify. I was convinced your mother would never love me and that she would choose Uncle Harry because…” He paused long enough for Rose to interrupt.

“Uncle Harry? What?”

“I was being poisoned by my own thoughts. What I did, leaving them, it still haunts me. I can still hear Hermione screaming for me to come back.”

Her father got up and walked over to the charred up rock, running his hands over it lightly. He clenched his fists and turned his back from her for a moment. Rose got up from her spot by the fire and reached out for her dad, trying to figure out a way to comfort something she didn’t really understand.

“But you did come back. I remember that much about the stories to know you were there at the end.”

“Yes, I came back. I followed them in the forest until finally Harry broke away from the concealing spells. I’ll tell you how I found them, but that’s a story for another day. Suffice it to say, I came back and faced all those weeks of dark thoughts in one terrifying moment.” He turned back to the rock, seeming to play out something in his mind.

“What did you do?”

“I took a sword and I fucking destroyed that locket! Even as it was mocking me, putting all of my thoughts out there for Harry to hear, I destroyed it. Nothing felt better, nothing felt more right than piercing the center of that thing and letting the evil drain from it.”

“But how? How could you stand something like that, playing with your head and eating away at your soul? How did you manage to destroy it?” Rose said, finding herself shaking.

“I just did. I thought of your mum, and of Harry, and I realized there were bigger things than me. If I was ever going to survive, Rose, I had to have faith in myself,” Her father turned to her, a soft look on his face.

Rose began earnestly sobbing. Her father saw right through her, like he knew all of her secrets, and the fear that he would hate her if he knew how much of a failure she was overwhelmed her. When she looked up, her dad was kneeling in front of her.

“You’re just like me. I can see it. You doubt yourself all of the time. But you have to understand, you’re amazing. And the more faith you have in yourself, the better things will be. I promise you that.” He said, pulling out his handkerchief and wiping the tears from her face.

“They cut my hair, dad! Someone told them, and they came at me at night and when I woke up it was gone! It’s been like this since third year. Something about me…they hate me!” She cried out, trying to push her dad away.

“Why didn’t you tell us? We could have helped you through this.”

“Because I promised you when I was little that I would always shine. How would you feel to know that I’m a freak at school? That I’m spit at and whispered about? You should see the things they write about me! You’d hate me,” she said desperately.

Seeing her dad look at her with watery eyes, hearing her fears exposed, Rose could see the error. Her parents loved her, her family cared, and she had turned away from everyone in fear. The thought added another layer to her own self-loathing.

“Look at me, Rosie,” Her dad whispered. She reluctantly lifted her head.

“You’ll always shine to me. You’re funny, you’re a damn good flier, and you have a heart that could rival your grandmother’s with its capacity to love. You never have to hide from me or your mum,” he said, pulling her close to him.

For the first time in ages, Rose felt safe.

***************

When all the debutantes desert you
And all the doorways are all closed
And all the harlequins have hurt you
I will be the one who loves you the most
I will be the one who loves you the most


Rose, Al, Andon and Trudy were gathered by the lake on a rare sunny April day when Headmistress McGonagall approached them. All four immediately stood up and brushed themselves off; worried they were getting in trouble (though for what was unclear). She cleared her throat, looking grave, and asked Al and Rose to join her in her office. Rose's heart pounded in her chest as Al's hand grabbed hers tightly.

When they arrived at the office, Rose saw Hugo and immediately ran to him. Lily was standing there, looking lost and afraid and Al walked over to her to wrap an arm around her shoulders. The Headmistress signaled for them to sit, expanding the chairs into one long sofa for the family to sit upon. Hugo cleared his throat.

"It's our dads isn’t' it?"

"I'm afraid so, Mr. Weasley. There was an incident while they were on an Auror mission. They are both in critical condition at St. Mungos." Rose thought that McGonagall had never looked nearly so emotional before.

"Please say that we can go and see them!" Lily piped up, clutching at her brother's side.

"That is my intention, yes. I'm just opening up a secure floo connection now," The Headmistress said, gesturing toward her fireplace.

The children took the floo one at a time and found all of their grandparents waiting for them at the other end. Even Rose's mother's parents were there, wringing their hands anxiously and looking a little out of place and lost among the sparking evidences of every day magic. Rose fell into Grandpa Granger's arms easily, holding tightly to something solid through her fear.

Grandma Weasley told them that their dads had gotten badly injured in a potions raid, and were both currently unconscious. Uncle Harry had suffered a head injury while her father was dealing with a curse that sliced across his spinal column. The outlook was good, as long as both men could wake up and their healing monitored. Rose felt only a slight relief at that news. She wanted to see her father, but the vast collection of teenagers and children in the waiting room were told to do just that…wait.

Rose sat in between Hugo and Al, resting her head on her brother's shoulder. While she was still taller than the thirteen year old boy, he had very broad shoulders and his biceps were already thickening. He looked like Uncle George but with their mother's hair. He was warm, and shaking with grief and Rose found a good spot to lay her head while they waited.

Sometime later, it could have been hours or minutes, her mother and Aunt Ginny came out looking tired and careworn.

"They are going to be okay. Ron's awake and Harry is starting to regain consciousness! You all will be able to see them soon," Aunt Ginny said, a smile cracking her exhausted features. Her mother came over to her and Hugo and pulled them into a tight hug. She was now smaller than both of them. She murmured words of comfort to them and smoothed over Rose's hair until the healers called her back into the room. Rose sat back down next to her Grandma Weasley.

"Hang in there, love," Grandma Weasley said, patting her lightly on the knee. "Your father is a strong man; he'll back to normal before you know it."

Rose didn't answer. It was hard to take comfort when she hadn't seen her father yet. She just nodded slightly and looked forward, grabbing her grandmother's hand.

"We need a distraction! Tell me all about boys you like," Her grandmother smiled and whispered in her ear conspiratorially. "And there's got to be at least one."

Rose blushed. She didn't want to divulge any information, but she was as grateful for the distraction it provided as she was nervous over spilling all of her hard kept secrets. Her grandmother seemed like the least likely person to torture her about her feelings.

"Okay well there is this one boy. He's Al's best friend, and I feel like he's my best friend too. I don't want to ruin our friendship, but he just…I don't know," she tried to find a poetic and mature way to finish her sentence, but she just ended up blushing even harder. Her grandmother smiled knowingly.

"I don't think I have to tell you that your parents were best friends before they got together, but in hindsight, one wonders if they'd ever been friends at all, or if they were always in love," she said happily.

"Don't get me started! I've heard the story enough times, Grandma."

"Well, I bet you didn't know that your grandfather and I were also best friends," Rose shook her head and she could have sworn her grandmother was blushing worse than she was. "Yep. We used to play pranks on each other all of the time. The day after a Hogsmeade visit was the worst, because we'd both fill our arms with stuff from Zonkos, and I'd wake up with exploding wands in my bed (though how he got them there I'll never know. And of course I would cover him in super sticky slime in retaliation. It was a great game, and always good for a laugh. But whatever you do, don't tell Uncle George we were such tricksters. We'd never hear the end of it!"

"Ha! I promise, Grandma. But what changed?"

"Well I had been feeling pretty differently about Arthur during our fifth year, and wanted to write him a letter telling him how I felt. I was never one to shy away from a challenge, I tell you what! So I mustered up the courage, and went to find my owl, when I saw that she already had a letter for me. It didn’t' look like Arthur's hand, but I held out hope," she took a breath and a sip of her tea before continuing.

"Well, it was a love letter from the Game Keeper, Ogg. I was scared, frightened, and refused to go out onto the grounds even to watch the Quidditch match. Imagine! Thinking that great old oaf was in love with me! Finally, headmaster Dipped called me into his office and told me that one of my roommates had found my letter. He called Ogg in there too!" Rose gasped, imagining the awful humiliation.

"Ogg was beside himself, swearing he didn't write it and begging to keep his job. I couldn’t' do anything but cry until suddenly someone was pounding madly on the Headmaster's door."

"I think I can see where this is going," Rose said, imagining her grandfather's face as he realized his prank had backfired.

"Well you're cleverer than me in that respect. Arthur came barging in and confessed to the whole great mess. Ogg sighed in relief, the headmaster laughed and gave Arthur two night's detention, and I was left crying outside of his office door."

"Oh grandma, I'm so sorry!"

"It was a might big heartbreak. I had hoped Arthur and I had turned a corner. He came over to comfort me, but I was having none of it. I spent five minutes telling him how much of an insensitive jerk he was treating a girl who loved him like that…"

Rose actually laughed despite their grave circumstances.

"Well, I won't tell you the rest. But you can understand how it all turned out."

"I don’t' know if I have the guts you have, Grandma."

"Sure you do! You're just like your father. You fear your ability to do something until you do it," She said matter of factly. "So when you finally bring your young man home, and I do mean when, go easy on your father's temperament. You have the same."

With those final and cryptic words, Molly Weasley rose to meet Rose's mother and aunt, and she was finally able to go in and see your father.

The tall and imposing figure Ron Weasley always cast was not diminished as he lay in bed like Rose feared it would. His long legs took up so much space that he still looked large even when lying down. He was shockingly motionless, but when her blue eyes met his, she saw all the life that bubbled in her father. As her and Hugo fell over his chest, she knew that things were going to be alright. As long as her family was together, the larger problems of her world seemed less significant.

***************

Rose Weasley was only a few months into her sixth year, and already her days were filled with promise. She had her small group of friends, including Andon, and even though she was nowhere near mustering up the courage to tell him how she felt, things were looking up. Rose Weasley, as it turned out, was a prodigy with potions.

Her Potions professor told her that she could do a summer internship in between this and her final year, and she was currently looking over the pamphlets. The prospect of being away from home for 4 weeks made her nervous, but the idea of her own little adventure trumped any nerves she had. She was excited to find something she loved as much as quidditch.

Rose felt like her and Andon were growing closer, and taking to heart what her grandmother told her last year, she was finally plucking up the courage to tell him how she felt. By the way he was around her, she was starting to hold out hope that he felt the same way. One night, at dinner she resolved to make her move.

"Andon, can I talk to you?" Rose asked, trying to keep her blush at bay.

"Sure, yeah. I needed to talk to you as well." She said, guiding her over to a darkened corner outside of the Great Hall, she shuddered at the feeling of his hand on the small of her back.

"You first." They had spoken simultaneously.

"I have a girlfriend," he smiled. Rose felt dizzy, but she tried to swallow it down.

"That's great, Andon!"

"It's Imelda Hall," he said, looking nervous. Rose began to speak up, but he cut her off. "Now she's really changed! She's grown up, and she's sorry for everything she did to you! Just give her a chance, will you?"

Rose had no choice. She realized he would never love her, so why would she care who he was with? Melly hadn't said a word to her this year, so Rose thought that maybe Andon could be right. She half-heartedly congratulated him before sulking off down the hall. She was glad she had homework to do, that way she could avoid seeing Melly's perfect hair, her perfect body, and her perfect face. She just didn't think she could handle knowing she'd never be good enough.

***************

After four weeks of Melly’s cooing and pawing at Andon, Rose didn’t even eat lunch in the Great Hall anymore. She couldn’t stomach the sight. Trudy joined her in the library most days, but she had her own boyfriend to spend time with. Al stuck by Andon like glue, and Rose suspected that he was trying to pick up tips.

Things only got worse when it was announced that there would be a Christmas Ball to commemorate Headmistress McGonagall’s retirement. Apparently, she had a passion for dancing, and the other professors thought this would be a fitting send off for her. Christmas was the perfect time because it didn’t interfere with OWLS and NEWTS.

Rose didn’t even want a dress. She didn’t want to go. She wanted to go home and sit by the fireplace, drink her father’s way- too- much –chocolate- that- it’s- no- longer- liquid cocoa, and waste away her holiday in peace in obscurity. It came as no surprise that irony decided to torture her, and her parents were invited to attend.

The ball seemed to whip everyone into a frenzy, even the first three years who weren’t allowed to attend were holding hands and giggling furtively at each other. Rose had just about enough, and withdrew even further from her classmates than she had in recent weeks. The abandoned classroom next to the Potion’s room was the perfect spot to prepare for her internship.

As Rose was walking out of the dungeons and making the long trip back to Gryffindor Tower, she heard a grunt and an angry ‘smack’ against the cold brick wall. She knew that sound well enough, her brother and father made it enough times during chess and while listening to the wireless. Someone was angry. Rose decided to go the other way.

“No, Imelda!” It was Andon, and he sounded somewhere near anguished.

“Just give me another chance!” Melly’s voice was sickly sweet, and it sounded grating against Rose’s ears.

“You were snogging Marks! I knew you hadn’t changed. I should have listened to Rose,” Andon said, but Rose felt no victory. He sounded so hurt that she just wanted to comfort her best friend. She had accepted that Andon could never love her, but in this moment Rose felt like a terrible friend for not standing by him anyway.

“That freak? I bet she snogs a picture of you every night!” Melly shouted. Rose slunk away; there was nothing she could do for Andon now.

When your suitors sneering swank beside you
And leave you hollow like a ghost
And you just want somebody to confide to
I will be the one who loves you the most
I will be the one who loves you the most


"Why in the world is there a bloody ball?" Ron said, tossing the invitations onto the table. He and Hermione had received beautiful pieces of parchment with their names inscribed on it that requested their attendance at a ball. Hogwarts was going to see Headmistress McGonagall off with a bang, and he remembered how fondly she smiled when she spoke of the Yule Ball.

"I expect because it hasn’t been done in a while, Ron," Hermione answered, not looking up from the letter she was writing.

"Well the last one was such a disaster, why would they want to do it again?"

"It was only a disaster for you and Harry. I, for one, had a lovely time," Hermione answered haughtily, calling pigwidgeon over to deliver a letter she had just sealed.

"Of course you did," Ron said, feigning grumpiness. Hermione looked up at him ready to argue, but she must have seen the smirk on his face, because she smiled in answer. "All that fun with Vicky…I'm sure you and Vicky still chat on a regular basis about how wonderful that ball was."

Ron prowled toward her side of the kitchen table. He grabbed Hermione and she squealed as he picked her up from her chair. Instead of fighting his show of force, she wrapped her legs around his waist, throwing her head back and laughing. He bit at her neck lightly before carrying her over into the living room and throwing her down on the couch.

Sometime later, lying on an old quilt in the sun of their picture window, Pig came back, so excited by a job well done that he was unaffected by his owner's naked state. He dropped a letter right on Hermione's chest and nestled himself on their window sill to watch her read it. Ron recognized Hugo's handwriting and tried to read over her shoulder.

"What is he doing up this early on a Saturday?" Ron asked. "And how did he write back so fast?"

"Hugo is nothing if not prompt, a trait he doesn’t get from his father."

"Duly noted…What does he say?"

"Well, he is already very excited for the dance. Apparently he wants to wear a suit from George's shop. I swear, he is asking for trouble," Hermione said, scanning the letter. Ron was excited about the idea of picking a modified suit from George and even adding a few more things to entertain dance goers. He was suddenly happier about attending the ball.

"Is Rosie as excited? I don't know if I am going to be able to tolerate a bunch of randy little tossers pawing at my daughter," Ron said, horrified.

"Hugo says she's not going…" Hermione sighed. "I thought things were better."

"I thought so too."

Ron's relief about Rose not going to the ball was overshadowed by his worry behind the reasons. He was certain that life had improved for her, and his stomach sank at the notion that she may have been hiding her hurt from him again. He resolved to spend his evening with her while they were at Hogwarts. He wanted to get to the bottom of why she wasn't going to the party, but there was an added bonus of not having to make an arse of himself on the dance floor.

Later that day, Hermione had Hugo's measurements and they were on their way to Diagon Alley to pick up supplies for the ball, which was only two weeks away. Ron wasn't looking forward to a fitting of formal dress robes at Madame Malkin's, but Hermione insisted. She was right, his old robes were very out of style and ragged looking, but that didn’t make the task any less boring.
Hermione sent him over to Weasley Wizard Wheezes while she was fitted, saying hers was going to take a bit longer anyway. She needed to find the perfect fabric to offset her hair or some barmy nonsense.

Roxanne was working behind the counter, learning the tricks of the trade to one day take over the Hogsmeade shop for her father. She looked up at Ron and smiled, fishing the suit they had set aside for Hugo from a rack behind her. The vibrant purple hurt his eyes and made him grin.

"Uncle Ron, this is the most incredible suit Dad has made, I swear it! I wish I could go to the ball just to see Hugo in it!" Roxanne said, draping the purple concoction across the sales counter. She quickly pointed out the spinning tie, complete with the Non Burning Weasley Wizard Wheezes Whiz-bang Wonders that shot of from the knot, the animated sign on the back that would read things like "Back off She's Mine," with the flick of a wand, and finally the automatic awesome dancer shoes which would give the wearer "moves like you would only find with the world's premier rug-cutters." Ron was absolutely thrilled he'd be able to watch Hugo in action in this perfect suit.

"Roxy, your dad's outdone himself again. Where is he?" Ron asked as she took Hugo's measurements and made the necessary adjustments.

"He's in the potion room. He says you can't go in there, and I wouldn't if I were you. There have been weird smells and loud noises coming from that room all morning," She said, looking warily at the door. Ron just nodded. After working with George for two years when he was younger, he understood all too well never to interrupt the evil genius in that state.

"Is Rose going to the ball?" Roxanne asked casually.

"No, she reckons she's just going to stick it out in her dorm. She doesn't fancy dancing," Ron made up a lie, because he didn't have a very clear reason why Rose wasn't going in the first place. Roxanne looked troubled at the news.

"I thought…oh…um…never mind."

"Would this have more to do with her tormenters than she is letting on?" Ron asked, worried about the answer.

"I don’t know. She hasn't written me in ages. Her last letter seemed happy enough, but she did mention that Andon was dating Melanie," Rose said, attempting to look busy all of a sudden.

"Andon is one of her best friends, but who's Imelda?"

"Well, she's one of the Gryffindor roommates."

"The one that has been torturing my daughter for most of her educational life?" Ron said, leaning against the counter to try to get Roxanne to make eye contact.

"The very same," she finally answered sadly.

Ron's heart broke a little for Rose. He couldn’t imagine if one of his best friends would have suddenly begun dating Malfoy or something. To top it off, What Rose had endured for years was worse than any school yard bullying Ron suffered at the hands of that blonde ponce. He hoped she was okay, and made a point to make her evening perfect even if she wasn’t going to the ball. Ron thanked Roxanne, kissed her lightly on the cheek, and made his way back to Madame Malkins.

When he walked into the robe store, he saw no sign of Hermione. He went to turn around and walk right back out, purposely forgetting his dress robes, when he was struck by something golden yellow in the window. There was a set of dress robes on a stand in the side window of the shop that caught the light of the sun so perfectly that it seemed to shine. He immediately thought of Rose, and reached out to run his fingers over the fabric.

It was a long set of dress robes, and the material was some sort of see through shimmery yellow that was layered to cancel out the opaqueness. The layers on the bottom made it flow, and look like waves. The fabric was spelled to flutter around the bottom of the stand, and Ron thought about the light, quick way his tall and lanky daughter moved. He pictured her feet dancing across the Great Hall, peeking out from beneath these yellow robes, and he couldn't help but smile.

The top of the robes had straps that Ron immediately thought were far too thin, but knew that most girls wore things like that. There was a strip of sheer red and orange around the middle that wound down into the skirt part piece like a flame. The flower on the right strap looked more like a fire than a plant. Ron thought of their camping trip, and then of his little girl twirling in the sun, and he couldn't help himself. This dress was Rose's dress, and even if she refused to take her broken heart to the ball, someday she would wear the dress and know how perfect she really was.

Ron jingled the gold in his pocket, thought of the deposit he was about to make at Gringott's, and knew he could afford it. He asked the sales clerk to get the dress robes down for him, and reluctantly also gave his name to pick up his own robes. When the pieces were in a safe container, he paid. He turned to find his wife staring at him with misty eyes.

"It's beautiful. It's perfect for her," She whispered. She had on a pair of flawless blue robes stuck with pins as Madame Malkin herself fussed with Hermione in the middle of the sales floor.

"Just in case, y'know?" Ron said, blushing slightly under her gaze.

"I know. I brought her measurements with me," Hermione said, holding out a small bit of parchment. He kissed her on the forehead and exited the store before she decided he needed a second set of robes or something.

Hermione had the perfect pair of shoes, something vintage by someone whose name Ron couldn't pronounce. She magically altered them. Then, she shrunk down Rose's dress and Hugo's suit, putting them in miniature boxes that could be carried by Pig. Ron felt the dress needed an explanation, so he spent the rest of that Saturday afternoon in his study, trying to figure out what to say to Rose. By dinner time, he had a version that was passable, and tucked it inside the tiny box.

Rose,
I know you're not going to the ball, but on the off chance you may change your mind, here is something to get you there. Listen, I know that the world is against you, and I understand that your school years have been painful…trust me, I do. But I also know who you are. You glow. You're so driven and clever, and you are kind to a point that is almost unimaginable. I told you to hold your head up high, and if that means not going to the dance, then you'll just have to let me beat you at chess in the common room.
But…well…I think that you would look amazing dancing in this, and that is the best revenge: proving to them that nothing they can do will affect you.
Save me a dance, or save me a game. I'll see you in a week.
Dad


With that, Ron sent off the packages with Pig and hoped that he wasn't pressuring Rose, but that she might feel like the choice was hers instead of out of her control.

***************

Rose sat on her bed, alone in Gryffindor Tower, and pulled a long box out of her trunk. She disguised it as a broom box, just in case her roommates would see what she had and do something vicious to her. She pulled out the long, fiery dress robes and laid them on her bed, setting the shoes next to it. She sat in a chair and gazed at the dress robes, tears falling down her face. She was so uncertain and frustrated that she was actually weeping.

Her parents had come up and said that they had arrived. Her dad said they had to go down and grease a few palms, but he would escape as soon as he could and play chess all night. She tried to read his face for disappointment, waited for any mention of the dress robes, but he just smiled at her warmly and led her mother and a glowing, flashing Hugo out of the common room.

Now Rose sat, having a nearly literal fight with the beautiful piece of clothing and hating her own cowardice. If she were honest with herself, she longed to go to the dance. She wanted to twirl and spin in front of everyone and show them just how unbruised she was. She wanted to feel powerful and beautiful. She could have a perfect night; she knew she had it in her.

Rushing over to her bureau, she pulled out a shining amber jeweled hair clip. She spelled her wig into an elegant twist, the way her mother had shown her for special occasions, and curled little ringlets to fall. She powdered her face to take away some of the nervous shine, but left her freckles there for everyone to see. If she was going down, she was going down as Rose Weasley…not one of Them. Finally, when she had put on her favorite bra and panty set, she walked over to the mirror. She ran her hands over her flat stomach, around her only slightly rounded hips, and up her long arms. She was still skinny, but she was looking at a woman, and she tried to embrace that notion as much as she could.

She slipped on the dress over her head, snapped the shoes in place, and deliberately ignored the mirror as she made her way out of her dorm. She wanted to enter the arena with her head high, and fight off the lions with everything she had. A mirror would only make her doubt her own bravado, and she needed all of it just to make it down the steps.

Rose paused at the entrance of The Great Hall and gasped. The entire room had been changed to not only reflect the ancient beauty of the Scottish castle, but was also covered in thistle, heather and lavender floral arrangements. There were tartan cloths over the tables, and natural candles hung from the ceiling. Everything gave off a natural, ancient air. It looked like the medieval castle that Hogwarts had once been, and it was gorgeous. Professor McGonagall was being honored in the exact way that would suit her, and Rose couldn't help but smile.

She didn't realize she walked into the room until she caught a few curious if slightly gawking glances her way. Her heart began to race, but she just smiled and looked around for someone familiar. She saw her parents deep in conversation with Professor Longbottom. Her mother lifted her head and caught Rose's gaze. There was such a warm, inviting answering expression on her face that Rose rushed over to hug her mother. She didn't realize how much she missed her mother when she was at school.

As he made her way over to her parents, her father turned around, beamed at her, and swept her up in a quick hug. "I wouldn't want to embarrass you, Rosie, having your old fart father taking up all of your attention."

"Oh Viktor! I didn’t know you were going to be here!" Her mother exclaimed. Rose perked her head up to see Andon and his father standing next to Professor Longbottom.

"Hello Hermione. I believe you are familiar with my son, Andon? Are our children not friends?" Mr. Krum said, gesturing toward Andon.

Andon didn’t acknowledge the introduction, and the chattering words slowly faded into the background as she locked eyes with her long time friend. His dark gaze penetrated her, and Rose felt chills go down to the soles of her feet. He offered his hand wordlessly, and she took it as if it was the only possible thing she could have done, above thinking and breathing.

"Andon Krum?" She heard her father say, confused as she floated with Andon into the center of the dance floor.

Before she knew it, Andon's large hand was on the small of her back, and the other one was wrapped around her long, pale fingers. She finally took a deep breath just as he swung her around another dramatic curve. The music was undetectable as her heart pounded in her ears. All that time of quiet longing and resignation seemed to burst out of her, and she pressed her body closer to his. Andon breathed in and pulled her tighter.

"You look astounding," he whispered in her ear. "I've wanted to hold you like this for months."

"Months?" Was all Rose's dry mouth could manage. He delicately kissed her cheek and spun her around again.

The crowd wasn't there. The music wasn't playing. They weren't in the Great Hall. She was in a universe that consisted only of her and Andon. She knew him, she knew his heart, and it wasn't this dress that was pulling him toward her. He wanted her; she could feel his affection in every bend of his hand and breathe from his lips. She hoped give her the first kiss that she never thought would happen.

Suddenly, there was a loud scream and a bang. Rose looked up to see Melly, her hair coming undone, and her new dress robes disheveled. Her wand was pointed at Rose. Andon pulled her in more tightly.

"You bald lying backstabbing nasty little cunt!" She shouted. With a flick of her wand, every single stitch of Rose's clothing flew off of her. The breeze on her head indicated she was completely uncovered. Before anyone could so much as move, Rose flew out of the room, grabbing a tartan tablecloth, heedless of the breaking glass she left behind. All she heard was cackling laughter.

She ran with the tartan cloth wrapped around her until the cold of the stone floor had made her bare feet sting. She collapsed into the first empty classroom she could find, holding her herself and sobbing on the floor near an unused fireplace. She wanted to die, and couldn't imagine how her soul could recover from the blow.

She was embarrassed about being nude in front of the whole school, certainly, but what really terrified her was that everyone knew her secret. Sure, she was done with school for her sixth year, but what would happen when she came back for seventh year? Rose tried to imagine getting a private tutor and taking her N.E.W.T.S early, but she was worried about how her career prospects would measure up if she left Hogwarts.

Her head spun with visions of Andon. She didn't see his face when she was cursed, but she didn’t have to. Even someone as kind and good as him could never be attracted to a woman with no hair. She clawed at her skull until she actually hurt herself and broke the skin. Then, she fell to the floor and cried.

She felt the cooling of a healing charm on her head and looked up to see her father standing over her, holding the dress he had bought her and looking so concerned that she couldn’t help but cry harder. He knelt down to her and took her into his arms like she wasn't nearly six feet tall, but the little girl he had grown his hair out for. She clung on to his robes like she would drown without him.

"In front of everyone, dad. .They all know!" She managed through the tightness in her throat.

"So what if they do?" He said, sounding harsh and determined. "Are you any different? Are you any less a person?"

"No. I know I'm not."

"Then what are you worried about. You can handle anything that comes your way. You're a Weasley," he smiled, brushing her tears from her face.

"I can't…I'm sorry."

"You don't need to apologize to me, Rose Weasley! It's my job to always care about you no matter what. You couldn't do anything that would make me love you less. I am your father; I'm supposed to protect you. I'm supposed to make you feel safe," He said, clenching his fists.

"And you do, but they are just so cruel. I can't handle it anymore. I tried so hard after that camping trip, but this…how is he going to love me now?" Rose asked, not even caring if her father knew the details of her absent romantic life at this point.

She looked up to see comprehension dawn on him. "You continue being who you are, and he will. I saw the way he was looking at you…trust me, it made me want to hide you back in the tower."

"But he knows now," she said, the sad thought notwithstanding, she finally felt good enough to rise up. She took her wand and fashioned her tablecloth into a robe.

"No, Rosie. Put the dress back on. We'll go home now, start vacation early. But you're going to walk out with your head held high. I know you have it in you," he said, thrusting the yellow robes back into her hands.

"What about mum?"

"Oh, your mother is raining vengeance down on that crazy little bint. She'll be occupied with motherly rage and that temper of hers for hours," Her father smiled as he stepped out of the room and shut the door.

The thought of her mother, hands on her hips and hair wild in all directions, bringing down her wrath on Melly was enough to cause Rose to get up and put her dress on. She walked over to the dusty mirror in the corner of the classroom and spelled away the grime. She forced herself to face her reflection, and what she found there was unexpected.

She saw a beautiful, glowing woman, standing tall and narrow, with shining blue eyes and pale skin. She saw her bald head, but didn't hate it. She saw her bony frame, but embraced it. Rose looked at herself and saw the Real Rose. It wasn’t a reality based upon viewing her bare scalp. This Real Rose was looking back at her because she knew herself. For years she had been lost in this fog of uncertainty, barely gaining moments of clarity. But as she addressed her form in its rawness, she was aware that however painful things had gotten, she survived and thrived.

She stepped out the door and took her father’s arm. They walked in front of the double doors of the Great Hall, smirking slightly at the sound of her mother's yelling echoing from the headmistress' office. Her father opened the door for her, and she stepped out onto the grounds. She spread her arms out, faced the setting sun, and breathed in.

Rose and her father shared two fingers of firewhiskey and a chicken sandwich before her mother and Hugo showed up in their kitchen, red faced and accomplished.

"She is not being expelled, because I just can't…but since she is of age, I have brought about formal charges. I'll be handling this vile little girl's case in The Ministry," Her mother said, sitting down and taking a shot her father had offered without being asked. "How are you?"

"I'm honestly okay, mum. I will be…" She said, taking her mother's hand for a moment.

"Oh man, Rose. You should have seen Andon. The moment someone started laughing he threatened them…with his fists! I have never seen him lose his cool like that!" Hugo said, reaching for the firewhiskey. Ron took it away before he could get a good grip, and he pouted in mock indignation.

"He what?" Rose said, shocked that Andon wasn't hiding in embarrassment for being seen with her.

"Yeah. He went with Al to look for you, but Dad found you first. Don’t know where he got to after that," Hugo said, winking at her and spinning his tie. Tiny sparks fell around her in vibrant colors, and Rose smiled. "Nice look by the way."

The whiskey had made Rose feel tired, not to mention the serious amount of crying she had done that night. She got up, bowed to Hugo, and then floated up to her room like a haughty princess, the laughter of her family echoing behind her. She slept that night more soundly than she had in ages, not caring about the horrors of tomorrow. None of it seemed so horrible any more.

When Rose woke up the next morning and went down for breakfast still in her pajamas, the house seemed empty. It was a Saturday morning, so she assumed everyone was still sleeping. An explosion and raucous laughter suddenly erupted from Hugo's room, and she knew that Fred was already over and working on singlehandedly destroying everything they owned. She summoned the short, colored wig that Teddy had made her and settled it on her head before fixing some tea and toast and going onto the front porch.

"I like it. The color goes well with your eyes," Andon said, causing Rose to jump and drop her teacup. He immediately waved his wand to repair the broken china.

"Yeah…um…thanks," Was all she could manage to murmur as she avoided his gaze.

"Rose, I-"

"What are you doing here?"

She couldn't help but wait for the other shoe to fall. Even if she had a new perspective, she was still wounded and heartbroken. She didn't know what another break would do. There was a long and awkward silence.

"I wanted to continue our dance," He finally whispered. He stood up and took the cup from her hand, setting it down. This time, he wrapped both of arms around her waist and pulled her tightly against his chest. "I'm so sorry."

"What for?"

"For being with her…for not paying more attention to what she could do…for not telling you how I felt years ago." He said, his eyes never leaving hers even as his face got red.

"Years?" Rose had to bit her lips to keep from pulling his against her.

"Can I see you?" He asked shyly.

"Yes," she said, finding it an odd question. Of course they could date.

"No, I mean," he traced his fingers along the hairline of her wig and Rose shuddered. She panicked. She didn't want to scare him off. She didn't want him to see her up close in such a vulnerable way. She clenched her fists and breathed deeply. She didn’t want to hide, didn’t want to be scared any longer.

She cast the spell to loosen her wig and slid it off of her head.

See, when you forgive your imperfections
And you’ve auctioned all your clothes
And look to see your true reflection
You will be the one who loves you the most


Ron threw the last gnome out of the garden and walked toward the front of the house. He didn’t want Hermione to throw a fit about him tracking mud, so he opted to leave his boots on the front porch. He needed a day off in the sun, and having his kids back home proved to be the perfect excuse. As he rounded the corner he heard his daughter's delicate sniffles and his heart sank.

He looked up on the porch to see her friend Andon holding her closely as her shoulders shook. The young wizard was kissing long the crown of Rose's exposed head; her wig lay forgotten on the wooden floor. He whispered 'You're beautiful' in her ear and continued to press his lips to her pale skin. Ron bit his lip and moved to back away. The movement caused Andon to look up, but Ron pressed his fingers to his lips and backed away.

He wanted to run back out there and tell them to separate or feel his wrath, but Ron just trudged to the back of the house. He put his boots in the grass, took off his shoes and socks, and felt the grass against his feet. In a few years, his house would be empty, devoid of the noise of his wild and brilliant children. He decided that the snogging on the front porch and the odd explosions from upstairs were just fine with him. He leaned against the house and tried to get in a nap before Hugo and Fred burned the place down.


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